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Over the years I have been on Fluxotine I was on it for a year felt better came off it but went down hill 6months later, so was put on Sertaline that didn't do anything for me apart from giving me the runs constantly, so then they tried me on Amtriptyline but that was not good for my Glucoma medication, so I went on Citrapram which did nothing for my moods at all if anything made them worse because I couldn't sleep. So to the Back end of the year I was put on 15mg of Mirtazapine which helped me sleep but made me feel so angry especially in the mornings and got really bad joint pain and again did nothing to lift my mood, so weaned myself off them with the doctors approval I have been off medication nearly 4 months and have sunk so badly I don't want to go out I get no joy from my grandkids I can't bare my husband to be near me, I even lost it one weekend I went to stay at my mums for a few days but I just couldn't have any contact with him. This illness is completely taking over my life and I want it to stop. Has anyone been on any different medication to what I have had already and it's lifted this black negative feeling if so please advise me what to try please I am desperate now to get my life back under control.
Thank you for taking time to read this much appreciated.
Karen
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laura11452 karen07486
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Hi Karen
Why not go back on Fluxotine if that is what helped your mood in the first place??
Have you been sent to Cognitive Behaviour Therapy or been to counselling?
Deppression effects all areas of your life and because it takes away the person you really are and knocks your confidence. It also makes you behave in ways you wouldn't normally and then this makes you feels bad and makes your mood worse. You need more support by the sound of it..
karen07486 laura11452
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Hi Laura sorry I should of said I went back on Fluxotine a second time and it didn't have the affect it had the first time after 9 months I came off it as I felt so bad I needed something else and yes I have had counselling but it did nothing for me at all. I am waiting for CBT now but there is such a long wait. I wanted to give my body a rest from medication but I fooled myself into thinking I would be able to cope with my feelings but it's just getting to the point I hate getting up because I just feel so low and have no interest no motivation I feel numb.
Andthank you for your reply.
Karen
laura11452 karen07486
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The mornings are the hardest as you wake up and your thought process is so negative before you even get out of bed.
There is a support website called 7 CUPS OF TEA where you can chat to people who are going through the same thing and you can keep chatting on here. Talking alone can be good therapy
laura08496 karen07486
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dear karen,
i understand your concerns. there were times my boyfriend bumped into me, and i would have a fit (inside my head of course). life was so bad, i was done trying. but eventually, and it took many years, but i was finally doing well because of the combination of meds. what a miricle for me. i really thought i was doomed. i take 6 different meds to treat my illness. thats a lot. but it works for me. so i accept it. but it did take time to find the right 'cocktale' (is that even a word?) i had to suffer and try to be patient for years before i got better. you'll be okay. i hope it doesnt take as long for you as it did for me. just keep seeing your doctor, be open to some experimentations....and its very likely you will be relieved from your suffering. i am so sorry you are in that bad spot now. it makes everything feel wrong and upseting. you are certainly not alone sweetie. just hang in there. it will happen someday. best wishes to you karen! truly yours, laura
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