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I don't know where to start. I'm just so tired of this "anxiety". I can't take it any more. Everyday seems to be like hell for me. I get a new pain or some type of symptom and I worry about it so much, every conclusion ends with me dying from that symptom.
Today I had bad pain in my forearm and thought of a dvt, then I felt my fingers/wrist tingling and was sure it was a blood clot in my arm doing this. My arms still kinda hurts.
I had pain in my neck which also made me worry about a blood clot, hardening of the arteries, wisdom tooth infection, stroke and heart attack.
Pain in my abdomen which made me worry about heart attack, pancreatitis, liver problems.
Migrain which made me worry about stroke, aneurysm, seizure and tumor.
Heartburn which makes me worry about heart attack, esophageal spasms etc.
Frequent urinating and tingling throughout my body makes me worry about MS.
The list is endless and I'm so tired of it all. I wanna go to the doctor to figure out what's wrong, but I'm afraid I'll get dx with a deadly/uncontrollable condition. Yet I'm so tired of going to the doctors and them telling me it's just anxiety. How can all this be anxiety? How can my mind be making all these up? Its basically telling me that I'm lying on what I feel.
I wouldn't worry so much about dying so young, but with all my responsibilities I can't die yet.
I don't know if anyone understands what I'm rambling about, but I'm just so tired of not living my life without a care in the world. I just wanna be happy and relaxed again and I can't.
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