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I really dont know what to do anymore.
3 years ago i met the most amazing man, he has very similar morals to me, wants the things i want and has so much to offer me.
ive never felt like this about anyone or felt like i wanted a family life with anyone like i do him...
Around a year into our relationship, he stopped showing me sexual attention and it ended up always being me who instigated sex...
i then caught him out in a lie that really hurt me, altho nothing as bad as cheating or anything...
I then found out i was pregnant and we werent in a place financially or in our relationship, both from broken homes and dont want that for our child so we decided to terminate.
well everything changed from there, i since found out he regretted the decision he made and was angry at himself for it.
our relationship spiraled from there, i started to have major sel esteem issues and his mood got lower and lower and he started saying he didnt know if he wasnt our relationship or if he was in love with me, altho he has always said he loves me just not sure he was in love.
in september, we had a small arguement, he had a panic attack and we decided to take a break...
once the period we had agreed on was over he said he needed to be alone so that he could sort out his mental state, that he has really struggled and felt pressured etc.
He then started asking for his stuff the end of october, then finally met me to collect them beginning of december and it was really nice, he seemed better, like he was still thinking there was possibly a future for us etc.
He lost his grandma and his mood has gone lower than before, he hates his job (which he had the whole time i have known him).
I still feel like there is something there for both of us, my gut is telling me he still has those kind of feelings for me but when i ask him, he says he doesnt know how he feels, doesnt know if he wants to spend time with me and is trying to get himself out of a really bad place.
i think he has depression and when i approached the subject this morning (i passed him on my walk to work), he got really teary and stormed off then followed up with a message saying he was sorry, that he didnt need to hear that when its all he thinks about.
is it depression?
has anyone come back from a break up like this because of depression?
i just cant seem to walk away knowing there is still hope, and ive started to feel like its starting to affect my mood which is already extremely low because of the breakup... HELP
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