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The past month i have been doing well with the odd slip up with self harm but nothing major and have been feeling like i have a chance to beat this but i was alone last christmas and promised myself i wouldn't end up like that again and its happened again this year, my mum made plans without me and my step dad kicked me out of his house about a month ago because he couldn't deal with me being in my room feeling low all the time.
I was alone on christmas day and boxing day just laying in bed upset all day, the one day of the year that i just wanted to forget as i knew what was going to happen, i just hope next year isn't as bad as this because i don't know how much more i can take, im back to square one barely even moving out of bed
Im 20 years old and back to wishing there was an easy way out, i had built myself up to go to the doctors aswell which took weeks but was unable to go and now whats happened with christmas has just destroyed all of my motivation again!
I don't have any friends or family anymore, only people i speak to are people i have met on here who have been amazing but one day ill have to question what exactly it is im fighting for anymore.
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