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I am desperate... I have had anxiety disorder, PTSD for as long as I can remember. For a long time it hadbeen under control, I was prescribed Zoloft when I was fifteen and it allowed me to function. Last year, I went to my doctor because I was so tired I could barely get out of bed everyday, but I still didn't have the crippling anxiety attacks that kept me from leaving my home. His answer was to wean off of Zoloft and prescribe Adderall. Cut to present day, I am now back on Zoloft after having a complete psychotic breakdown and am still taking Adderall. I can't seem to get back to fully functioning sans crippling anxiety though. Also, I have a new doc. I had a fleeting moment of feeling "back on track" for a few weeks and now I am right back down into the abyss of blah. I have tried not taking the Adderall to see if that was causing any of this, I can feel the benefits, but I also wonder if I'm also feeling horrendous side-effects from it. Some days I feel like it's a godsend, other days I feel like it's contributing to my slow decline in sanity.
I guess my question is, has anyone else felt this? Since last Saturday, I have been feeling terrible anxiety, terrified to leave the house, terrified as I lay in bed... I am nauseous, I am shaky, I am weak, I am spacey, I am sad. Today, I have a headache and feel my physical symptoms are only worsening. I am so tired I feel like I could sleep for days. I did take Adderall today, the 20 mg that I am prescribed. I feel like if I stand up I will fall over. I feel like I am dying. Which I know, is or can be a symptom of anxiety in itself.
My doctor ran all kinds of tests a few months ago, the only thing he came up with was a severe magnesium definiency, and I have been taking supplements for it ever since.
I don't have time for this, I am a single full-time Mom of two young girls. I work, I'm trying to obtain a degree, I have got to keep moving forward but everyday I feel I get closer and closer to either death or losing my mind and throwing in the towel.
I'm sorry for the long rambling, not very-well-structured mess of a post... I'm honestly just trying to gain some kind of perspective on what's happening to me.
Any insight, or suggestions, relatable stories, funny stories, ANYTHING, would be very much appreciated.
Thanks so much!
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