Is this really me?
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To cut a long story short, I was going to commit suicide this evening, had it all planned out, checked my will, paper work during the week. Thanked my bereavement councillor for all her help, donation to the Hospice she worked for. Had great hugs and kisses with my grandkids yesterday, they're away this weekend. Yesterday felt as if i was on the outside looking in couldn't get hold of cpn at the time. Got drunk last night. Had a walk with a couple of work colleagues today, home, spoke to my sister and mother and now I feel really spaced out as if i'm not in. Does that make sense. I've now had a drink to stop me driving out to the place I had planned, but I feel empty, nothing, vacant, as if I am at peace.......I'm ready....
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Hitman86 tina89895
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I don't know why I logged on just now as I haven't been on this in a while. I don't believe in coincidences.
Before you do anything like you described please call 999 and speak to someone. People are there to comfort you and make you at ease. I had to recently stop the mirtazapine due to such similar thoughts you're experiencing.
I am now in different medication and it's going better. Please pick up the phone and dial for a doctor. People care about you. I care about you.
rstep04 tina89895
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Brandy964 tina89895
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I'm so sorry you're feeling this way.
Is there anyone you can talk to tonight Hun? A friend, your son? Maybe Samaritans? Have Drs got your medication sorted for you?
Hold on to those precious hugs & kisses from your grandkids & how special they are to you, think of the special moments that you'll get to share with them in the future.
I do understand the feelings you're experiencing, when the world is as black & dark as you feel it's so very hard to see light but I promise you there is light. I too tried suicide, luckily I was caught in time, at the time I didn't think I was lucky but after a long tough struggle & years of counselling I'm glad I made it.
Tina please stay strong.
Sending you lots of love & thinking of you xx
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where do you live?
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Talk to us if you can't call someone. Please try. Where do you live?
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