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Hi guys. So i wrote on here about a month ago about A situation going on with myself/boyfriend. We’ve been dating for two years now and we’ve always been a great couple. We never usually fight other than small things and we never put each other down, no abuse, nothing to be concerned about. But one day it’s like a switch turned off in my head and i felt like i didn’t love him anymore. This thought of course scared me to high hell because it came out of absolutely nowhere and the day before, everything was as usual, happy and in love. As i mentioned in my other post I’ve been seriously stressed out in school this semester and i have been noticeably more irritable and depressed feeling. Regarding my boyfriend, i have periods where i feel energized and in love and find it silly to even consider not being in love with him anymore, but then, the majority of the time, i have this feeling that I don’t want to be with him. Its like every time im happy, the devil on my shoulder reminds me that i might not want to be in this relationship anymore which causes me to over think. I have been feeling very disconnected lately too. It’s extremely hard to explain but i sort of feel like i don’t know who i am, and sometimes ill look at my boyfriend and feel as if he is a stranger. It’s very upsetting. But sometimes ill look at him and see the person i love. I’ve also been feeling detached and avoiding of my family and friends as well. Lately my desire to hang out with my boyfriend has also been fading. Although my first instinct is to plan my schedule to see him and to make time for him whenever i can. There’s just so much going on in my head, i feel like I’ve overthinked myself into a black hole and i don’t know what feelings are real and which are not. I don’t understand how everything could be amazing one day and the next day start questioning my whole relationship. This boy is my best friend and i can’t imagine going a day without talking to him, hugging him, laughing with him and just being around him, yet at the same time, something feels so off inside of myself and im not sure if it is because i don’t want the relationship anymore and im in denial or if im depressed and as a result, im retreating into myself and pushing the people i love away. I have plans to start seeing a therapist but any feedback or advice would be very appreciated
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