Just a friendly message!

Hello everyone,

My names Ellis and i'm 18, Not too long ago I unfortunatly knew what it was like to have no one to talk, weather it's something troubling you, or you're just looking for a friendly chat to pass the day away,please please feel free to message me, It will not be any inconveniance to me and I will not be burdened by what you tell me so please don't feel like you can't talk to me!

Here's a little poem tthat has made me want to be a better person that I was, than I am..

Days of endless struggle

More hopeful pills today

Trying to appear 'normal'

In some sort of way.

It seems that the struggle

Is always here with me

And I wouldn't be here now

If guilt would leave me be

I know there's been many

Who've had it worse than I

But that doesn't always mean

That I wouldn't say good-bye

People say I have a lot going for me

I'm sorry, but I just can't see

I can't see because my worst enemy

Is not my life, but inside of me.

Always on a roller coaster,

Not much consistency

I'm nothing if I'm not up or down

I'm nothing if just 'me.'

Very little energy

Wanting to stay in bed

Wishing to be enthusiastic

Instead of feeling like I'm made of lead.

Wanting to be excited

Wanting to care for more

But when nothing makes sense

It's hard to focus on the poor.

Cluttered mind, cluttered thinking

It's hard to keep in touch

With what is happening around me

And not to worry too much.

I feel that everybody is better than me

And that I can't do anything right.

This is how I've felt my whole dang life

It didn't just start last night.

No confidence, no self-esteem

Everybody else is right

To speak my mind is to be a fool

So I just try to 'sit tight.'

Any one of these problems

Would be a heavy vice

But when you have them ALL

Living seems like a roll of the dice.

Hope you all had a day better than yesterday, and just remember we are all in this together! You are all stronger than you think! Never stop fighting!

-Ellis

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