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I'm new so I suppose just sharing experiences here. A few years ago I went to see a therapist, who specialised in attachment therapy. It was following a break up of a relationship & a pretty terrible loss of job. Well both were core shakingingly life turning upside down awful.
I totally lost my identity, felt all my 'badness' I tried to suppress was finally out in the open. I could not function in a way - I just couldn't work, was under a lot of pressure, was lying to cover up work I had not done, and felt could not face up to any of it. I started a new job was great then after 8 ml this could not hack it. I cried a lot, lost quite a few friends. I saw the therapist and talked about issues from childhood, my mum was quite abusive, physically and verbally and although thrived at school as pretty much a swot & did have good crew of friends did still get bullied, people shouting nasty stuff at me. My therapist helped me see howu reactions to things are driven from a programming that belongs in my childhood, and that I've developed anxiety as a result of this. I can't drink alchohol as at some point if drink it x 2 per week it will after 2-3 months lead to me unleashing tears/ anger. I live with my partner who I love yet I try to sabotage it sometimes but consistently questioning does he love me, what does he want. His brother lives with us who I find odd & if truth be told wish he didn't. But he helps my partner cover his mortgage. I feel the strong, respected, go getter me has shrivelled up and I'm left with this husk of me. I don't like myself and wish I could just go back into FT employment (I'm trying) and live a normal life. There you go.
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