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Why is it that when i start thinking about suicide and everything, suddenly everyone around me is mentioning it like a joke and it just makes me feel so stupid and ridiculous. No one knows that i am thinking about it though and its easy for me to play along with them but its quite amazing how you wouldnt really take it seriously until it becomes real for you i guess?
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TheMustardCat InventiveTiger
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People shouldn't be joking about stuff like this why don't you tell your friends what's going on then they will probably stop making fun and jokes of it. And maybe they would be there for you to support and help you
InventiveTiger TheMustardCat
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TheMustardCat InventiveTiger
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They are not real friends if they don't like you for who you are and if they are not going to support you. Or if you have to have certain expectations just to be in there friend group then they are not real friends
wayne1962 InventiveTiger
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Hi InventiveTiger - sorry to read of your sadness. I think it is telling that while you have been thinking of suicide, suddenly yoir friends are joking about such a scenario when you have never mentioned anything to them about how you feel. The first thought that came to me was that a message was being passed to you that suicide is not funny and that you must not do it. The second thought was that since you have been considering it you are more susceptible to noticing the subject when it is mentioned. The third thought was "Please don't do it." This is because suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem; people who are left will either diminish your meory with their scorn or find some wasy to blame themselves for your action; you will regret the decision and there is no way back. I would suggest you see your doctor to discuss your thoughts, perhaps with a view to meds on a temporary basis, and also to discuss a referral to a counsellor/therapist/psychologist to address your suicidal ideation. It is wise to explore every avenue where life and death is concerned. You don't need to tell anyone else about what you are doing - the doc and therapist are the places where this issue should be addressed. Also, telling friends etc can be a very disappointing experience. When I did, some scoffed at the matter, some scolded me, and others pointed out all the positives which might have been true but did not address the suicidal ideation. Please seek help - you will be glad you did. Best of luck for your future.
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