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hey all. i dont know if im silly or over reacting and hope sumone takes the time to read this.. im 21.. i have 2 little boys 3 and 2 reason im writing this as they r my main priority.. wen i was 14 i was raped.. wen i was 13 i was attacked by 3 men.. nothing major just stolen fones and purses and a few bruises.. at tht time i had just met my kid daddy and didnt feel the need for counsilling as he was their. im with someone new now and honestly culdnt be happier as the kids father wasnt so pleasant. anyway maybe about a yr now i have got up in the mornings with my kids and had very happy days and been in a good mood etc.. 7pm they goto bed and im home alone i panic alot hear noises and people walking about my house which has me scared terrified and shaking like a leaf.. i search all the rooms knowing in my head theres no one here but still believe its something.. im so paranoid i think theres someone watching my house or looking at me threw my window then a sometimes see a face but its not really there so then a get so scared start crying and get so shaky and nerves that something bad is going to happen. my fella would stay with me 2 nites a week and ive had him sometimes run around looking in all the rooms for me and sometimes ive jumped out of my sleep for no reason and im that scared then cant sleep. ive woke my fella a few times from jumping so bad.. i wont walk to the shop by myself so if the kids r away to their daddys i will stay in the house unless im with someone. nobody knows about any of this and i put on brave faces... i just want to know if i should see my doctor or am i just being stupid! thank u. i dont even know if this is the right place to be asking for advice but worth a try
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