Just want to vanish
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I am dealing with so much at the minute. My initial response to any emotional hardship is to just suck it up and deal with it.
Only im all sucked up.
I m not suicidal but i wish i could fastforward myself to old age and on the cusp of death.
I have just had enough of existing, i cant be bothered with it all. Everything is just too hard right now and just as i see the light, something else comes flying my way! Not one day goes by where something isnt hitting me like a ton of bricks.
My anxiety is not letting up at all. It gets worse during stressful times and the stress is not stopping! I keep on trying but it feels pointless as i get nowhere. It is forever 2 steps forward and 3 steps back! Just one more step forward and ill be happy!
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ann85529 claire67355
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Don't wish for old age. I've got it and it's not glamorous. It's damned hard work, and difficult when you've lost your youthful looks.
Try to get some help, Claire. You write intelligently and articulately. You must know you need help. All of us need to ask for help at some stage. Best of luck. We're all out here for you.
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I dont feel suicidal at all. Just like ive had enough with life.
Cancer is part of the problem, i think. I am finding out almost weekly of different parts to where my mums cancer has spread. I dont know what i would do without her.
Thank you all for your kind words
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