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I was prescribed citalopram in march for anxiety by my GP and it was the beginning of a living nightmare! I started on 20 mg for 5 weeks then my dose was increased to 30 mg for 5 weeks, 10 weeks of my life which I shall never get back. My anxiety was out of control, I lost 10 kg because I couldn't eat and was living on complan and Cheerios, I was lucky to sleep for 3 hours every night due to being jolted awake by adrenaline rushing through my body which lasted nearly all day and only diminished on an evening. I was virtually house bound, couldn't work couldn't even go to local shop, was practically living in my bed and terrified to be left alone. I had no emotions I couldn't even cry I was just existing. I was also on 3x40 mg propanol a day and diazapam didn't even touch the anxiety.
I was at drs every week, hospital twice and even had an ambulance.
This all came to a head when I decided my life wasn't worth living anymore and suicidal thoughts where taking over. I called the crisis team and I was addmitted to the mental health ward at my local hospital. They changed my medication to mirtazapine 15 mg and weaned me off the citalopram over a week then increased my mirtazapine to 30 mg. Mirtazapine has saved my life!
From the first night of taking it I actually slept it was amazing, it contains a sedative and also an appetite stimulant which enables me to eat again. I have been taking this medication for 5 weeks now and my life has changed so much. The anxiety is practically gone and I am able to go out and function and I can actually see a future, I still have some down days but with help also from CBT I'm learning how to deal with this.
It's still early days but everything is looking positive and my life is slowly returning to me. I encourage anyone who is really struggling with citalopram to look into mirtazapine, it literally has saved my life
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tamar80669 Lan-69
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Lan-69 tamar80669
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I forgot to say I have been on citalopram before and it worked fine for me but this time it worked against me . I kept struggling on each day hoping they would kick in but unfortunately it didn't happen
Lisa
tamar80669 Lan-69
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Lan-69 tamar80669
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I have to stay on my medication for life but I'm happy with that
tamar80669 Lan-69
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PeterTJS69 Lan-69
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I was changed to venlaflaxine but that made things worse. I was eventually given mirtazipine I'm on 45mg and been on them six years. Tho with CBT life is alot better. But the fight to get the right treatment was a knightmare. Suffered for over a year that wasn't nessasery. It's a daily battle but one I'm determined to win now.
I'm even training to be a CBT therapist to help others as its helping me understand more about my condition.
Lan-69 PeterTJS69
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I have had 5 sessions of cbt 3 of those were prior to my hospital admission. After the first 3 sessions I had given up hope it was going to work for me but the last 2 something seemed to click and I'm finding them a great help
Lisa
New85 Lan-69
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Lan-69 New85
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Yes different medications differently for different people. Citalopram worked wonders for me previously so I just continued taking them praying they would do the same again but it wasn't to be. I really didn't want to have to keep trying different medications and going through withdrawals and side effects each time but luckily the changeover was not as horrendous as I thought it would be
Lisa
dino89283 Lan-69
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PeterTJS69 dino89283
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dino89283 PeterTJS69
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In the time she took to phone me I could have had the injection.Take care.
Lan-69 dino89283
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I didn't realise there was so much support out out there and probably still wouldn't if it wasn't for my hospital admission
GPS don't seem to inform you of these organisations. I have been referred to MIND, pathways, crossroads and moving forward but like everything else you have to wait
I'm also waiting for an advocate to help me when it is time for me to return to work
Lisa
lee1111 Lan-69
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Lan-69 lee1111
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Yes it's brilliant being able to sleep again. Going from 3 hours to 8 hours is immense, I still wake a couple of times but manage to go straight back over