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So it all started in december 2016(age was 30), my job was related to sports so i was in peak condition since i had to be everyday. But it all changed in december. Started having a lot of dizziness, if i sat down for a bit then got up, it would always make me feel dizzy for a few seconds. Hot flashed followed but different kind of hot flashes. The top of my head, face, and pretty much all upper body was super itchy for maybe 4-5 seconds then it would go away.
Next up was feeling cold. My feet and hands could not get warm whatsoever(still to this day) wich is something i never had before. I was always a hot person. A/C maxed out everyday and i loved it. But since that december im cold everyday(almost) and not only feet and hands anymore, full body.
Going into summer of 2017 was the worst summer of my life. Panic or Anxiety attacks one after another. Not a regular attack either. So intense my whole body was shaking if i took deep breaths while i was having an attack. Uncontrolable really, until i realised to really take small breath fast because if i took big breaths, my whole body would shake until i figured out my breathing.
August of 2017 was my worst month. Everynight i had attacks, whole body shivering feeling cold until the last week. Got sick with fever(i presume) for about 2 days my whole bed was soaking wet( like crazy amount wet) when i woke up. That stopped after 2 days .
September 2017 i started experiencing fasciculations in my calves, slowly but not many on both calves. I had to leave for my work in a different city where sports was my job.One day i look in the mirror shaving and i have a huge lump in my neck. Everytime i swallowed i would see it move up and down on my thyroid left side. Panicked obviously . Went to get some blood work and biopsy done. Blood was fine but the biopsy was inconclusive. Doc said it happens a lot because there was so much fluid in the lumps so they couldnt get diagnosis. My job took a lot of my time and since the doctor said the blood work looked good and that a lot of people have that kind of lump at one point in there life its usualy benign so i waited for the summer of 2018 to go back and check again.
So from september 2017 to April 2018 i was dealing with constant fasciculations. Both Calves are crazy bubbly feeling that you can see with your own eyes. Symptoms of cold body, bubbly calves, panick attacks here and there stayed with me that whole time i was gone for work.
Summer of 2018 was when i had enough. Couldnt do my job anymore( to many symptoms) didn’t feel like working out anymore staying in shape since how my body was holding me back from all those feelings. Went to see my doctor and he decided to put my on anxietey/depression pills. Took them for about 4 months. Was always tired on them felt different but not that good. So september of 2018 i decide to go get that lump checked out. The specialist who performed the surgery asked me straight up what i wanted to do. He said its common for people to have them on the thyroid, but for me it was an esthetic thing. I really wanted to get rid of it and i told him to do the surgery. Wich he did.
2 weeks later i get to go back to get my result. Sits me dowb and says “ Good thing you wanted to get rid of it since it was cancerous “
He tells me the type of cancer was a 1% chance of having it. But 99% of never coming back. So thats that, lump is gone from my thyroid. No more. I was thinking that whole time maybe thats what was causing all my symptoms in the first place??
How wrong i was. To this day its the same. Legs are even getting worst in fasciculation its up on my hamstrings now. I feel like my cold body is worse to. Even during summers. Lost a bucnh of weight( although not exercising anymore for the last 2 years) not eating as much anymore and its making me lose weight big time. Muscles are gone from all my time being involved in sports. I barely have appetite anymore. Im so stressed out ive been thinking about that december 2016 everyday since.
Before that crazy 2016 december, i used to smoke everyday(weed) chronic amounts for probably 8 years straight. Joints,vaporizers,edibles you name it. Did them all and all day. Sleeping pill got to be a problem too. Probably 3 years straight i would take them in a crazy amount too. Everynight 1-2 pills(Ambian,1 was the recommended dose but i would always go to 2 or 3 at times). Also i got a drinking problem maybe a year before that december 2016. Everynight i needed alcohol. Not one night off . So i mixed alcohol, sleeping pills and weed for everynight for a long period of time.
Sleeping pills stopped in 2018. No more. Thought maybe that was the problem with everything else i was consuming. Pills stopped but the drinking and smoking didn’t. After my surgery for my lumps removal, i decided to stop drinking heavy( from then and now i might comsume one drink every 2 weeks).
Not feeling any better after stopping those 2 things. So now im onto my weed problem (chronic). Wake and bake, all day smoking crazy amounts and at night my tolerance was so high by then that my Edibles i would take would be in the range of 150-250 mg everynight. Crazzzzzy amount. Back when i started edibles i used to take 20mg and i was so high. Imagine 250mg everynight. Couldnt go 1 day let alone 2 in a row without my weed.
So here i am now. Pills and booze not a problem anymore, weed i dont smoke at all during day. At night tho i still take thos edibles but a tiny amount at a time. Something im trying to cut down on too.
Not sure if its related but 3 months ago i strted to get bad stomach pain, inflamation . Nausea all the time, not hungry whatsoever. When i go number to its hit or miss. Darker “poo” and really hurting in the stomach and sometime lower intestine. Taking deep breaths all the time cuz of inflammation. Lost a ton of wight right now do to not eating a lot and pretty much feeling like s**t. Food dosnt smeel good. No appetite.
So i go back to my doctors again re-do all the blood work and mri scans of stomach(for ulcers) but they dont see anything abnormal. To this day my stomach is the same way. One day can be great and eating well. Next day its inflammed and dont feel like eating at all. They gave me acid reflux pills . Felt good for 2-3 days maybe then symptoms would come back. They said to make sure to not stop the pill right away as it can take up to 2 weeks to work. I went a month on them and it didnt do any good. Plus why would they give me acid relfux med? No Ulcers on mri or xray.Never had a digesting problem in my life. I could eat anything and everything i wanted because 1 hour later it was out if my system. Going number 2 was so easy and fun when before all this happen. I had the best metabolism. Never gained weight from bad eating, prtty much i could eat whatever i wanted and as much as i wanted and nothing would happen to my body.
I don’t know what to do anymore. Symptoms of cold, muscle twitching, not eating do to my stomach , losing weight, not wanting to go in public because of my condition. I look at myself in the mirror in the morning and i can’t stand seeing myself like this.
Went for blood work again when my stomach was messed up and doc cant find anything abnormal. TSH test(thyroid) are all good too. Iron, magnesium,liver,cbc , i did even std tests and hiv. I did them all pretty much is what im saying.
Question is, why am i not normal? I am now 33 years old, and i think i have maybe another year left and im serious. Its something i think about everyday since that december 2016. I cant get it out of my head. I know stress and anxiety can cause some bad stuff, but it ain’t it in my case trust me. I know when im anxious and not. Stress i might be a lot more but not to the point of making me physicaly ill( legs bubbling, stomach problems, panic attacks, COLD all the time)
Anyways i have been trying to tell my doctors all that( ive seen 3 different ones) and they think stress and anxiety is my issue. No chance thats what it is but eh, they are experts and im not. But im an expert of my body and how i feel is not right. Like not at all.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. Have a good day!
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vicky60291 jim99712
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Hi so sorry you are going through all this ,, unfortunately vitamin D isnt in the protocol for check , most of the time it has to be requested . You symptoms is that of low vitamin levels. ... Have them checked as soon as you can ,
Amz87 jim99712
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Have you had a PET scan to see if the cancer is any where else in your body and has your Dr tested your T4 and T3 levels of your thyroid along with antibodies to rule out autoimmune thyroid just testing TSH is not good enough to rule out hyer or hypothyroid. Demand it if they havent, night sweats that soak the sheets can be a symptom of cancer. The intolerance to cold can be a thyroid thing, i believe there is something more than anxiety going on with you.
You also need to ask to have camera in your tummy and one to look in your bowels as well. Please ask dont give in until you get what you need, my fil is dying from stomach cancer because he wasnt taken seriously. He had to demand more testing all they wanted to do was put him on antidepressants and told him it was in his head, she should have sued them.
If you get these tests and still nothing then you can presume that most is all down to anxiety and stress and try something for the anxiety and panic.
lester90053 jim99712
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You need to check into a good rehab facility and stay there for awhile until they can solve your enormous problems. Don't wait until it's too late.
catherine06891 jim99712
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Wow, Jim, I read every word and I really admire your courage and determination through this frightening phase in your life. I am so glad that the doctors have said everything is normal and the lump in your thyroid is now removed. What an shocking and terrifying journey for you, and you've made it through the worst thank God!
You're taking more care of yourself, and cutting back on those vices you know are doing you harm. You are aware that you need to recover and get back to the person you were before, and I get the feeling you will do so because of your resilient spirit. You have been through extreme pain and emotion, but you will are and will be stronger because you survived it.
As part of your recovery from the trauma you've been through, you could move out of the emotional to the practical, and try some gentle exercises and physiotherapy, as that's so good for anxiety and could be your first steps back to your previous fitness. I'm sure you know as a sportsman, that muscle knots can be rubbed out, as fasciculation is tightening, contraction and locking of the muscle fibers that create lumps and bumps, which could definitely be related to the continuous stress and tension you've had to suffer. Keep practicing self-care, as you are your own best friend through all of this.
Let us know how you get on Jim.
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