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Wednesday I found out that I have herpes. I knew it could happen but it's one of those things that you don't think really does, ya know? I have been a wreck since i found out. I was able to make it through the day without too many breakdowns though. I just feel completely lost. I'm sad, I'm afraid, I'm angry, I'm every negative emotion that you can think of. I know it's not the end of the world but right now if definitely feels like it. I just turned 19. I feel like I just lost my life. I don't have any special guy in my life and now I feel like I'm never going to find him. Idk I just need someone to tell me it's going to be ok i guss.

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  • hope4cure
    hope4cure Guest

    Posted

    Lost..

    I felt the same way when I found out at age 60 the a few weeks later I came down with Shingles. That the only thing that shook the life outta me. My partner of 30 yrs tested and no herpes. So I'm still wondering how I got it... The docs of course think we r both in denial. It not yrue neither of is had any outside affairs. I only have it not him. So go figure. If anyone has an answer to this delimna I would sure be interested.

    lost I was very upset I thought my partner had cheated and test should he did not have herpes. 

    IT takes time to adjust to it. Just be sure u keep all meds on hand to stay on top of it the minute u feel a tongue. I guarantee the time will bee a lot less suffering thru. And as time goes by the break out are less and less for me and lidocaine is very helpful.

    CHEERS

    HOPE

    • Guest
      Guest hope4cure

      Posted

      I'm sorry that you havr to go through this too. This is my first outbreak and it is so painful. I've been drinking so many fluids to try to dilute my urine a little. It helps but I still am brought to tears every time I go. Right now I'm on the 10 day cycle of acyclovir. Monday I have an appointment to get on whatever is the daily pill. Idk. I'm afraid of what my life is going to become. I have it though so I'm going to do everything I can to prevent future outbreaks. I'm just so young and I'm going through it alone. I told my mom but she lives 6 hours away from me. Ugh this is my fault. I'm the only person I can be mad at, and I accept that. I just wish things could be different.  I'm so young. This situation just sucks 
    • hope4cure
      hope4cure Guest

      Posted

      Hi, 

      I am in Oregon.. R u in the US.

      try not to feel regret or guilt , this doesn't have to be a prison sentence. 

      Stay on toP of the little bugger. Read and research all u can. There is no cure for a viral disease yet if u understand HERPES u will know how to treat UR symptoms. 

      Know UR treatment options and never let it define who u r .

      One out of six people have herpes from age of 14-49 and some don't even know they have it. 

      CHEERS biggrin

      HOPE

    • Guest
      Guest hope4cure

      Posted

      I wish I could not regrrt. I just do because I was so nonchalant about my health and my body. I should have been smarter. I just didn't think it would happen to me. I know it's not a prison sentence but it just such a hopeless feeling. 

      but yes I live in florida. 

  • sunshine44960
    sunshine44960 Guest

    Posted

    I'm awefully sorry to hear that but just know that you are not alone. Everyone in this forum is in the same situation. So you did the right thing by posting here and you will get tremendous support in it.

    What I can tell you with certainty is after the "mourning and acceptance" phase things get better smile I got my first outbreak of HSV1 about a month ago, I thought my life had come to an end but of late I can tell you there are days I don't even think about it. Like you I cried alot the first weeks and thought the world had come to an end for me but after accepting it and reading much about it, it has gotten lighter and it will too for you like for everyone else in here smile

    Read as much as possible about herpes to help you avoid or reduce outbreaks. The more you stress the more risk you are at having an outbreak. It's maybe still early for you now since you are still mourning your herpes free body but you need to try and get to terms with it. You are a super strong person and you need to look deep down inside of you to find the strength to move on. As it's usually said "there is no need crying over spilled milk" You can't do anything now to reverse the situation, you just need to get stronger and move forward. Build up your immune system. eat healthy, exercise, take your medication. One forum member here says that fresh pineapple or pineapple juice has helped her stop outbreaks. I have also adopted drinking a glass of pineapple juice everyday and taking my multi-vitamine tablets. So you might want to try pineapple too. It's cheap and tastes delicious smile

    Concerning future relationships, you have to inform any potential partner about your situation. This will give them the choice to decide if they want to be with you or not. You will also feel better by being honest. There is nothing much more betrayful if you don't say anything and they later find out you have had herpes all along and chose not to inform them. It will be difficult but you will feel better and they will also appreciate your honesty. You should of course arm yourself for rejection. There are some people who will be scared to hell if you tell them but there are alot of open minded guys out there who wouldn't care at all. If you meet the right guy and he loves you sufficiently, he wouldn't mind. You will of course have to be on the look out for periods of outbreak to protect him from contamination and trust me that is easy. It will be just like a period of abstinence and when you can be intimate again it will be so gratifying and both of you will enjoy the intimacy.

    Since you don't currently have a bf, take care of yourself and your health, that is the most important thing now. If you do meet a guy, don't say anything for the first couple of weeks. Tell him about your situation ONLY when you are certain there is a relationship potential or if you are going to have sex with him or any kind of sexual encounter (oral sex) There is no need telling every guy you meet that you have herpes. Funny as it may sound, herpes has it's up sides you know, say for example, you are going to be more conscious about your choices in guys and you will automatically sieve out those that you think are just out for "fun". You will also pay more attention to your health and your body be eating healthy and exercising.

    Don't let this herpes control your life!!! It's just a minor inconvenience and you shouldn't give it the time of day. The more you focus on it, the more it will impact your life. Tell it to go to hell smile Sure you are young and this sucks but you have a long, fruitful and happy life infront of you. Don't let it slip by by focusing on this minor detail. You are strong, smart, beautiful inside out and all shall be well

    Hugs

     

    • Guest
      Guest sunshine44960

      Posted

      Thank you so much for all of your advice.  I read your response quite a few times and the more I read it the more encouraged I felt. My mom was actually the one introduced me to this site and I'm so glad she did. Honestly,  I don't feel any better as a person, I feel ashamed,  not because I have herpes but because of the way I treated myself and my body.  BUT i am glad I made an account. I feel better about my future and I'm overjoyed that I have all of this support. I think it's kind of a cruel wakeup call for me me. I lost touch with who I was as a person and now it's time to focus on me. I need to start eating a little better and get fit. Bump up dat immune system lol. I've already figured out how to pee without wanting to punch a baby(big deal for me, I cried every time I peed), now I just have to figure out how I'm going to deal with what I become.
    • hope4cure
      hope4cure Guest

      Posted

      Bri. Don't beat urself up so much. I think in time u will get a handle on this and it will be pushed back into just another part of our health we keep track of.. New drugs... Techniques always be proud of who u r. It happen to me at 60 as my partner tested negative. It could have been dormant in my body for years. After 30 yrs of marriages we never let it get in the way.

       

    • hope4cure
      hope4cure sunshine44960

      Posted

      U said it all.. Great support it's people like u that make these forums so helpful

      CHEERS

      HOPE biggrin

    • sunshine44960
      sunshine44960 hope4cure

      Posted

      Thanks hope4cure, I'm only trying to give back the support I got unconditionally from this forum smile

      Cheers to you too

    • sunshine44960
      sunshine44960 Guest

      Posted

      I'm glad I could be of some help. I can already see your positive attitude peaking up, that's great smile Just keep on like that and this will become some distant insignificant memory. Yes do take care and love yourself, that is something that cannot be compromised.

      All will fall into place with time

      Take care and stay strong smile

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