Lost and Alone

Hi Painpal,

it sounds like you are extremely down. Don't worry if flu's not working yet, it takes up to 4 weeks to work and up to 3 months to reach its best. This is what everyone says. If you're really sad don't think too much about it, just think of the fact that you will feel better soon.

If you really can't get any better, talk to your doctor, I am sure they will be able to help. You might want to start psychotherapy.

Keep writing to us, we're here to help!

Hopefully you feel better soon.

Thank you so much for replying. I have looked on here before going to work this morning. I really appreciate there being someone there who understands. When I went to my doctor he asked me how bad I felt, but didn't really listen to my answer. He gave me the prescription, gave me a questionaire to fill in and bring back the next time I went, and I felt so so low. I went to ask for help to survivie these awful feelings of despair, and came away with his insensitivity ringing in my ears. I AM persevering with the pills - I DO want to survive this, although sometimes it feels too painful to bear.

Hello Painpal

Don't let the doctors reaction play on your mind, mine was EXACTLY the same... and the truth of it is they are not specialised in the depression/anxiety field so don't look to them for answers they are hopeless on that front!

I do agree with the other person who replied to your post though, hang in there Flu do take a few weeks to kick in and for me I felt worse before I felt better.... I started to really feel a lift in about the 5th week of taking them and getting out of bed didn't seem as bad as it once did.

One thing I will suggest is don't isolate yourself , talk to your nearest and dearest it helped me loads ...I had bottled things up for so long I reached a point when I didn't care anymore what anyone thought...I guess you cud say I had a breakdown very similar to yours...

Its surprising how much support you will get from your family and friends...they will probably acknowledge to that you haven't been yourself.....and its then that you can start to move forward and get better!!!

Hope my post helps.

Write soon

xx

Thank you - yes, it does help. I'm still feeling really really low. Saw a counsellor today, who talked me through the emotions of the day when my world almost stopped because i couldn't cope any more with anyhting. I'm just so very very tired of it all. I am supposed to go back and see the dr who prescribed the drug, but I just feel that I don't care and can't face seeing him again. Sorry i'm so morose - I am really frightened here

Hi Painpal

hang in there, it does take time i was in the same place i tried to take my own life when things got so bad, i didnt want t bother anybody anymore, after i went to see the doctor who prescibed me flu and i agree with all the other comments it does take a very long time to kick in but they worked for me ive been on them now for about 3 months so plaese hang in there i also found this site really helpful, and the poeples comments didnt make me feel so isolated. i started to wrtie a diary about the reasons that i thought were behind my depression try it, it might work it really helped me, but dont just write about the bad feelings if your having a good day then write about it. i think it helps put things in to perspective.

i hope this is of some help to you hang in there dont give in.

these pills have helped me in some way.... i am still depressed but its like i cant reach it..... if that sounds right to you

Stay Safe

Crazy D

Dear Painpal,

you are having a really rough time right now but don't give up, life can get better. I've been taking flu for nearly 4 weeks now, yesterday was good, today not so and week 3 was hell on earth but I am determined to keep going as I've been told they really are worth it.(I suggest you don't drink with them initially, don't think it mixes) Well done you for seeing a counsellor, that is a step in the right direction and like someone else suggested it works for some people to write things down as you are feeling them. Keep the good bits in a diary to read again and again and try to write the worrying bits down seperately then put them to bed by destroying them. You are on the long road to recovery as you have recognised there is a problem but that is the first step and you have taken it. Keep at your g.p and get all the help there is. Exercise is something none of us can face when we are feeling low but it does make you feel better, try running up and down the stairs or getting out for a walk. take care. :P

i tried replying - i cant do this anymore. it is all too much. i cant feel anything except the pain. i wish it was all over. thanks for replying on here. i hope you all make it.

Still here. Went to dr yesterday and dose was increased to 40mg. He said 'how do you feel now that the OD didn't work?' I feel lost and alone - that's all. I can't stop crying and everything seems to be too much effort. I wish i cared about something - maybe there'd be some hope.

Hello again Painpal,

I have already sent you a message a few days ago, but I wasn't logged in, so I just appeared as 'guest'.

I don't know if the pain you feel is the same as mine, however I think I can understand how disruptive it can be. I realise I spent the last 2 or 3 years fighting this pain: this was my life: everyday I was looking for something to get rid of it. If something good happened, it would fade slighlty, if something bad happened, it would get worse.

Since I started flu, the pain went, but I had some other side effects, and, although I haven't been sad this week, I couldn't leave my bed all week. As many people have said, week 3 is the worst. I am now well into week four and today I felt ok.

Before you do something stupid, remember, you have people here who can and want to understand you. I am so glad I joined this group!

We all want to hear from you and wish you get better soon.

get in touch with us again,

AthenA

Hey painpal,

We are here.

Please, please do not give up hope. Like we have all said previously it does take a couple of weeks to see the benefit of these tabs, have you got any one to talk to about how you are feeling? I reckon you must be in the 3rd week of taking them now yeah? Next week you will start to feel a lift, they will be very small positives to start but you must focus on them and you will recognise that they are helping and that you will get better!

Please let us know how you are.

xx

Hi - it's now three weeks in and one week of increased dose. I have had terrible side effects but am going back to Dr tomorrow so will tell him. Am feeling really really low still, and often think of suicide. Horrible, horrible time. So much pain and tough times in my life at the moment. I don't think this drug will be a miracle cure somehow. I need just the miracle. :cry:

painpal, i know exactly how you feel i have gone from 20mg to 40mg and recently to 60mg and I still feel very depressed and suicidal, it doesnt help xmas is just round the corner, you have my deepest sympathy, feel free to talk

Hi- went to dr who said all I have been experiencing are side effects from increase of dose, but wants me to persevere and contunue with the higher dose as he said would improve in a week or so as my body adfusted.

andy35 - I'm sorry it's so tough for you too. Yrs, Christmas is a very difficult time. Hang in there - you're not alone :cry:

hi painpal and all. I have also been suffering from all the symptoms as yours. I am now nearly in my fourth week of tabs and feel worse now than the first two weeks(20mg).I agree that in my case the good times are few and when i do feel good, i cannot make it last before the bad feelings come back with a vengeance.I feel that talking to anyone makes me feel ten times worse as i seem to be reliving the problems all over again.Give yourself time.