madness mayhem and alcohol
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Afew days ago I brought to a close my 16 yr relationship? A monumental decision what needed to be made? Realising I am now totally alone I decided to brave the elements I put on my shoes (and other clothes obviously) and I took myself out and went for a walk? It was a lovelly sunny morning and my confidence grew with every step, my euphoria was short lived however when people/friends I hadn't seen in a while kept asking how I was or commenting on my health? (Had a breakdown didn't ya, hospitalised wernt ya) others asking "any money to lend me til I get paid" it all became too much and off home once again I set. Mulling the days events over in my head became incessant and felt another breakdown was on the cards. The next day I went out again even finding myself visiting the library, that was great for a while but when the crowds came I felt claustrophobic had to leave, my mistake came by way of approaching the pub and then not passing it but entering, people where happy to see me and although comments were made (health etc) I tried not to care and just got drunk? It didn't help in anyway but at the time it felt like it did, alcohol doesn't solve problems it only creates them the next day I done the same only worse as I also drank at home and then hit this forum which I sincerely apologize for, I woke up early yet again after only 2 hours sleep, no real hangover just the thoughts of the past fewdays running through my mind and I've been sitting here since, my self esteem shot to hell almost to the brink of madness but although the impulse to now drink again is strong I won't be doing it and I've realised that "FOR ME" going out is not the right thing to do at this time. I thank you all for your patients and again I apologise for using this forum while under the influence. Tha ns guys
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zoe1976 Mercybemine
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You've been very honest and good on you for that!
To be fair, going out to "clear your head" then getting asked all those questions would drive anybody to a pub! So, you had a breakdown? There's no need for anybody to rub your nose in it. You recognised you had a problem and you dealt with it.
Have you seen your doctor with a view to maybe trying an antidepressant or seeing a councellor? Sounds like the breakdown of your 16 year relationship has hit you harder than you thought...
Let me know how you get on.
All the best,
Zoe
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zoe1976 Mercybemine
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I'm so sorry to hear about your sister - can't begin to imagine how awful that must be for you. Is the Venolaxin helping you at all? Do you think you might need something stronger?
I think it's best to be without your ex - if you did get back with her it would be for all the wrong reasons (which you've said yourself!)
Feeling lonely is a horrible experience and I totally understand where you're coming from. Do you have any friends who know what your going through (not the ones who ask to borrow money off of you etc.) Or, a work colleague perhaps? You can always call the Samaritans (think it's a free number!) And, I'm always here if you want to chat.
Something my counciller suggested (might not work for you but thought I'd mention it) is to make a note each day of 5 things to appreciate. Could be "Watched a really good film" or "the weather was really nice today" - it's just an idea.
Anyway, as I say, I'm always here for you.
Zoe x
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deirdre._03652 Mercybemine
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Do not let others upset you, most really do mean well and would feel terrible if they felt that they had hurt you.
I too have been sectioned four times for alcoholic abuse, it is something that I am not ashamed of any more, I had a problem and I was helped, ( I have been well for ten years )
Please look after YOURSELF, be kind to yourself and never ever feel that you have failed in any way, I wish you very good luck,.... and a happy healthy future...Deirdre x
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hope4cure Mercybemine
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u will find peace it's UR journey to take..
I pray for u and send the angles to walk with u to show u the way..to find the strength that u will need to help sustain you thru UR path thru pain and better health to help u make peace with urself and others that will set u free.
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AnonymousWoman Mercybemine
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You have a good, clear perspective now. That is good and will help you get through this tough time.
All the best,
Agirl x
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