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Hi people,
I know the majority of the world is educated and understands the mental issues we suffer from. Anxiety/stress are some of the most common illnesses in the world. However, there are other people that do not understand and they are like predators leaving us to become their prey.
I have been victimized by individuals and even the police on several occasions. I've had individuals run into my home to attack me, call the police and then have me taken away. Just a few months ago I took an overdose because I couldn't take it anymore. While suffering from the immediate effects of this I then spoke to a friend who begged me to call an ambulance. Fight or flight kicked in and I dialed the out of hours service. After hallucinating, feeling the floor shake and monsters appearing in the air, I finally heard the bell ring. All I remember was waiting by the door for a very long time and no one came. I must have blacked out. Next I'm being beaten while I'm laying on the floor and even being cuffed by the police. I wake up in the hospital with a black eye, a chunk of my foot missing and covered in bruises. My wrists were raw and even to this day I hands still feel numb, I guess they managed to damage my nerves.
If that wasn't enough, they even accused me of assaulting the paramedics that were apparently trying to assist me. Although I cannot remember everything clearly, besides being beaten and knocked unconscious after waking from a blackout caused by the overdose. I know I couldn't have had the strength to even move, let alone assault someone. There is also no physical evidence of any injury and I'm sure if I assaulted someone it would leave a mark. Anyway, due to these corrupt and uneducated authorities I have had to plead guilty once again to a crime I didn't commit. Yes, it isn't the first time. They've got me before for similar things and it's all because like you, I have a mental health issue. They see us prey, something to abuse and make money out of.
I like to think Satan put them here to test us so we can gain more reward for our hardship when this life is over. I cannot understand why else people would be on this Earth with no other purpose than to harm those more vulnerable. Of course we all know where these people end up in the end, but I know that won't be my destination.
I would like to know if anyone else here has suffered abuse by individuals or authorities. I know there are millions of people out there who have, it is an epidemic. Everyday another innocent person is taken advantage of for money or gratification. Not all of us on this Earth have a good soul.
If you have been a victim of a similar situation, how did you deal with it? I'm sure they tried to make you feel that you are to blame, they do that so they don't feel guilty themselves. Anything to help them sleep at night I guess.
I think the world needs more protection for the vulnerable, both physically and mentally. Crooked police and individuals with an abusive mindset see us as a game. Something to take advantage of. But no matter what stay true to yourself, have a good heart and don't let them break you. You have something that they desire, a true soul and that is something they will never have.
Just wanna share the love with everyone out there who has ever been victimized for something they cannot control. Disabilities, mental illnesses... you are still a person and you deserve love and respect just like anyone else. Don't let anyone say that you don't.
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DaisyDaze chrisk89
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I have learned that most police have no patience or understanding of mental illness. They just rather eliminate these people off the earth.
However, overdosing will not help you at all. The best thing is to avoid the need to call for medical assistance. Keep that in mind that you will once again be pleading guilty to something that you cannot even remember. I know it's hard, but you need to find a different way to deal with mental conditions. You are already "labeled" and the next police officer or medical person will assume that since you've been in so much trouble, you are at fault. Time to start changing that.
chrisk89 DaisyDaze
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That is so true. It seems the police are not trained well in this area. Anyone with a mental illness is simply locked up without question, often when they are the victims. The worrying thing is there are definitely more people with mental illness than there's not. Since stress, depression and anxiety also come under this. I guess we're all just victims of each other.
The overdose was an attempt of suicide, probably the first time I really meant it. I am going to take your advice on avoiding medical assistance. They're job is to help but all they did was make my life very difficult, cause multiple injuries and I'm about to be convicted of a crime I probably didn't even commit. I am labelled as you said by these people, I feel as though I've been targeted solely because of my mental conditions. I don't think they care whether I'm at fault or not, having a mental condition seems to be enough to give them the motivation they need. All this abuse seems to create some real monsters these days, hell bent on killing their abusers. Always seems to be another shooting or murder everywhere. But still people never learn, I guess they think it will never happen to them. That people will just take the abuse and never do anything about it.
DaisyDaze chrisk89
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I'm so sorry about the suicide attempt. You were certainly at the end of your rope with people not understanding. One thing I always remember is that the person does NOT want to feel the way he/she does. They want to feel better. They want to feel good.
Of course seeking medical advise in a drs office is more productive than having to call emergency services, who are not well trained.
I feel bad for you; I hope you make out okay.
chrisk89 DaisyDaze
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There is no need for you to apologize. It is me that had to apologize to myself for almost letting myself down and to God for doing something which goes against everything he stands for. I believe that this life is a gift and to live in a way which is different than God's vision is not something I want to do. God is just good with one O. He is a being of positivity and happiness and it is the Devil who is [D]evil and probably used people who were already astray, to tempt me in an act of sin. I like to think that it is God who saved me from death on that day. I researched online and found that people who took a dose less than half than what I had taken, sadly they passed away. So now I am forever grateful that yet again my life has been saved and I am free to live, with my depression miraculously disappeared.
I've learned that it's not just that people don't understand, they don't want to understand. People need someone to hate I guess, there's always been someone to hate. They used to pick on Jesus and eventually hung him on the cross. As well as almost every other prophet in every religious book ever written. And since then there has been countless numbers of successful, happy people they continue to hate. I guess some people cannot stand to see others happy, they rather hate than appreciate. I don't know why certain people are cursed and restrained in this way of living but I guess it is all part of God's plan. They are a test for us and at the same time, people with disabilities and mental illnesses are a test for them. God wants to see how they react to people who are less fortunate whether physically or mentally. And sure we will have to put up with people who seem like they've just crawled out of hell, but again that's all part of the plan. They're our test and any hardship in this world only leads to more life in the next. And even religion aside, we cannot get away from this concept as it is ingrained in our very existence in this universe.
People definitely do not like feeling the way they do. But I guess for what ever reason it's just how they have to be. I am so grateful that my depression has lifted and I have no hate whatsoever in my soul. I can't imagine anything worse than to have such an emotion eat away at me like a termite. I guess have I discovered some tools and methods which have relieved me of any sort of negative emotion. The little things in life really are the big things. Some people chase the big things all their life just to find that they're no happier than they were in the beginning. I'm not saying I don't want a nice house or car, who doesn't want these things? But at the same time I know the happiness they can provide is very limited, I've seen it myself. True happiness really does come from within, once you are happy inside, all of the little stuff in life is suddenly really appealing. And a person who is already happy will enjoy and appreciate a nice house/car far more than someone who is using it to cover the positive emotions they are lacking.
Is it really true that the emergency services aren't as well trained? That is so bad, it should be the other way around. I was told a woman in her early 20s came when I told them I took an overdose and tried to commit suicide. At that age she couldn't have had much experience in this area so I really don't know what they were thinking. Poor decision led to a poor result in the end. But I guess I will just take the blame again as tbh I really don't care anymore. There is nothing these people can do to hurt me because I just look at them and I just almost feel sorry for them. Their lives revolve around something they can't even do right. But either way I can't let myself take any concern over what they do. I'm more focused on the bigger picture in life, I'll leave them to deal with the worrying lol.
michael2018 DaisyDaze
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Hi daisy daze,
I also believe the consultants today and some, not all but mental health help is
Not correct, I do think maybe they have jobs by medicating and money is so important, so instead of as dealing with some of are issues, they would rather do that thereselves, which upsets me. As I have a supposedly diagnosed illness of schizoaffective disorder. But strangely always feel worse on medication. I feel great when off it which is bizarre. But they somehow always end up winning it feels like to me. As police or mental health professionals get called when I'm off the meds eventually. Then I find I'm back to square one. Like a zombie on high medication. Never learning G how my brain feels naturally and having them happy feelings about myself lasting off the meds.
Sorry to go on, just thought something you said I agree with
DaisyDaze michael2018
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chrisk89 DaisyDaze
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It is all part of a system they've created. Medication is nothing more than a tool used instead of finding out the route of the problem. The reason for this is because they are not capable of doing anything more. If they were, they would do it.
One thing I've learned is that just because you have a mental condition, it doesn't mean that you are worse off than other people. You'd be surprised just what these people go through in their minds. Their anger and hatred eats away at them and this is why they target people like us as they have for centuries. (blacks, gays, transgenders). The reason why they does this is because inside they are not happy with themselves. It is based off insecurities which then leads to jealousy and the jealousy soon leads to anger and resentment.
The term to describe these people from a psychological perspective is a "narcissist". As you can probably guess from reports over the last few years, these people can even be medical professionals and police officers. There are endless reports where police and medical professionals have taken advantage of vulnerable people with medical conditions, the elderly and physically disabled. Narcissists lack empathy. They do not care if you suffer. They do what they do because they believe they will never be caught. Some narcissists are even religious or believe in karma, but they twist the interpretations to suit their own beliefs. Or some rules may apply to anyone else but themselves.
This is all part of the reason why they hand out pills without really considering what is really going on. And even if you do get referred to a psychiatrist, a lot of them are set in their own beliefs/mindsets which may not even apply to you improving your life. That's not to say that there aren't good medical professionals out there. Of course there are, but unfortunately they are a dime a dozen. And usually if they are efficient enough in their medical practice; the numbers of people they will see on a daily basis will soon turn them into another careless psychiatrist, who doesn't really see you as an individual.
I don't know why it is this way. But I guess it is the reality we must accept for now and hope that things will change in the future. Mental conditions and disabilities are now widely accepted across the world, although I know they do receive a lot of abuse in Pakistan, India and Bangladesh. Over time I'm sure they too will have to accept this as a reality. Sometimes people just want something to hate, so they pick minorities or vulnerable groups of people. They bring religion into it and try to say it is a punishment from God, when they could see it as a test for them to see as they treat us. Again, they just pick and choose whatever is easiest for them. Abusing others provides them with some relief I guess. Either way, I will remain true to myself and refrain from such behavior as I've already seen where it gets people.
michael2018 chrisk89
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chrisk89 michael2018
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I definitely believe it, I've seen it with my own eyes. Deep down I think everyone thinks the same they just deny it because it's easier. If only we were more empathic in this world, it would solve all of our problems. Forget what others will say, as long as you're not harming anyone, speak your mind. Some people will love you, others will hate you, you can't please everyone. But at least you can be real and be true to yourself. I can't remember anything worse than living my life, then looking back and thinking I wasn't real and being true to the person I really am.
I'm not sure why exactly, but it is true that some people want to see us punished. If you have a vulnerability or if you're elderly, certain people really do have it in for you. It's hard for some people to accept this, but you have to accept it before it can change. Just look at all the reports from hospitals, retirement homes... this is really happening. As an empathic individual I honestly cannot understand why they do these things, but they do and they take pleasure from it.
I am actually at the point of reducing all of my medication, venlafaxine and propranolol and I have to say it is really hard. I've been on heavy medication since summer time 2013, almost 5 years now. I took a lot of prescribed medication right from the beginning and I was mixing this with street drugs like meow meow, cocaine, marijuana, ephedrine. As well as extremely high doses of caffeine (up to 1200mg in one go) and aspirin (600mg) all at the same time. All of these combined clouded my judgement and I was accused of committing a serious crime. Now after all these years I'm having flashbacks from these events. All of these years I maintained my innocence even though deep down I felt that maybe I did do something wrong. From withdrawing from such heavy medication, my memory is now returning and I can see the reality of what happened. I have always believed that I was innocent of this crime but deep down there was always a voice saying "how could you even remember?". Now this cloud which once covered my memory has disappeared and I can see everyone for who they really are. I have been brainwashed into believing I did something that I didn't even do. I have researched and found that I am not the only one who has experienced flashbacks once withdrawing from effexor/venlafaxine. Now I am experiencing a lot of anger and resentment, as anyone would in this situation. But at the same time, I feel very happy. For so many years I doubted myself because I couldn't remember the situation clearly. Now I know, I was groomed by the authorities into becoming the person that they wanted me to be, and not the person who I actually was. I have a vivid memory of the police interview where I requested CCTV from the incident which they claimed they couldn't find. They brushed it off when in reality, they knew it was there. They knew that it is impossible to convict someone when CCTV evidence shows them doing the exact opposite of what they claimed they had done.
I hope that people can learn from my experience. You may not like to believe it, but the police will target you as a vulnerable individual with mental health issues. They will tell you that you've done something even when you haven't and they'll put all of their effort into making you believe it. There is no defense for a person who is vulnerable or suffering with mental health and they are using this to their advantage. It is difficult for someone to understand this until it has happened to them or someone they know. But I hope what I've said here can help somebody, don't let them redefine you.
Latyji3 chrisk89
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Yes Maybe I know these people are your regular Zombies,Gacy,Goverment,Porn,Smut unrighteousness they are who they are and the power they possess is growing amongst the torturing mean nasty people... Don't remain a victim...
Latyji3 chrisk89
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I forgot to mention that they are also coward ass JOKES in the closet d*** in the B**** no shame no coof. The rejects The more they continue to violate any one and disfigure anyone is the more the world will derive to the animal/like people
Like The Goteas and so on its Going to be alright I don't really understand some of it but I do know that I'm on the right track out of our hands it's nothing you could do about it unless you get a gun or something and just start hurting people and then you'll just be just like them what's the brighter side to this because everything has a bright side is if you're witnessing a lot of things like this and you understand and your profit Write Your Story down put it on the wall put it anywhere but Write Your Story
Latyji3 chrisk89
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I forgot to mention that they are also coward ass JOKES in the closet d*** in the B**** no shame no coof. The rejects The more they continue to violate any one and disfigure anyone is the more the world will derive to the animal/like people
Like The Goteas and so on its Going to be alright I don't really understand some of it but I do know that I'm on the right track out of our hands it's nothing you could do about it unless you get a gun or something and just start hurting people and then you'll just be just like them what's the brighter side to this because everything has a bright side is if you're witnessing a lot of things like this and you understand and your profit Write Your Story down put it on the wall put it anywhere but Write Your Story
chrisk89 Latyji3
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You are right my friend. These narcissistic people are always the aggressors in any situation, but at the same time they are very subtle about it. The reason for that is because they are cowards as you said. They are too cowardly and afraid to be real with you. They are literally turning people into animals and the innocent into criminals. These people will keep going with the BS until you do get a gun and hurt people, they never care until their victims are the ones causing the pain. By that time it's too late and then you're the one with the blame.
People are very blind to how they influence others, either that or they choose not to understand. All the shootings, terrorist attacks all over the world, this is not a problem they created on their own. These people have been manipulated, bullied and groomed their whole lives to the point where they cannot see another option. The intention to commit these crimes obviously didn't come with them when they were born into this world, that is impossible. Over time they have been negatively influenced by other people, bullies that have become their motive to kill. And believe me, anyone will kill if they are pushed to it. They know this, but they don't care, they never care until it's too late.
cindy80253 chrisk89
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Dear Chrisk89
I have been victimized by the very ones we should trust for many years now, they won't stop harassing me stealing from me and tampering with every thing I own. It's total corruption. Like they keep saying they need more staff well if they left us disadvantaged people alone they would have plenty of backup. Like go after someone your own size that is actually breaking the law. I guess they have nothing better to do but steal womens clothing and food."""like really""i got an alarm and they bypassed that even. The alarm company said only professionals could get through the alarm, so I got rid of it didn't work. You have to wonder who is on who's side here. Did you ever watch Prison Break...if not rent it, that's exactly how my life has been. I don't trust a sole except my father. And spyware its everywhere. Your not private even in a concrete condo. The swat team had me under surveillance after they put me in hospital and were very mean after I had a breakdown.What happened to serve and protect and honor the badge. Who would harass a person in hospital!....it's now happening where I live. I know I'm going to a better place than this world and that keeps me going. I just don't believe the corruption
in Victoria bc. Where are you located?
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