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Hi, My name is Kelly and I am 51. I have been a member of Menopause conservatively 6 years. I have graduated from peri to post about 2 years ago. Somehow I didn't get my pin for graduating. lol.
I have posted on this site before and I have tried to help posters also because this menopause (post and peri) is a scary, stressful and at times lonely affliction.
Definition of affliction: something that causes pain and suffering.
I have pain and I am suffering. Some days are better than others. I never know what the day will bring. This week as been absolute hell.
To start, I had a skin infection on my upper groin pubic area on left side. Think ingrown hair/boil like. It sat just under the skin and caused me a lot of grief off and on for more than a month. I had it lanced last Sunday and packed with gauze. It isn't that big but AHHH. Not enough numbing. I felt it all- minus the scalpel (thankfully.) It is clearing up nicely. Doc put me on a sulpha antibiotic 2x a day for 10 days. I have taken it right on time. I also take BP meds and a statin. Not really a fan of the antibiotics or post-menopause. I live in FL and can't go out in the sun for any length of time while on med. So I have to direct my hubby on yard work. My neighbors see me out and they go inside. Sigh. I don't want to be a she devil really. I am hurting and scared and worrying and miserable. It makes me snap at my husband (married over 26 years). He can help it he is a guy and has no clue. 😃 I just don't have the patience anymore.
I have nausea and left breast soreness, now I feel like I pulled some weird muscle in my chest wall on my right side. I have a stiff neck I also have a weird pain/pull feeling really low on my right side groin area. My back is killing me, I have a wee bit of a fever. 99.4
I feel like someone ran over me with a hormone truck. That horrible doubting little voice says. "What if it isn't hormones? What if it is cancer/tumor/ incurable things? What if I am the freak and no one else feels this way? What if you never feel better" I really hate that voice especially when I don't feel even remotely human. I am living my pain and suffering. My neck, my back, my side, my chest, and my groin area. I can barely function. I have a Dr appt tomorrow for left breast pain. So much more is attacking me now. She is going to think I am a mess .I want to feel better. I want my mom because she always made me feel better, but she lives several states from me and has dementia now. 😦
My husband doesn't know what to do with me. Ugh. I don't know what to do with me either.
I step down from my venting soapbox. Thank you.
Wishing you all normal hormones and beautiful days and night. XX
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