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I am new to this group and I have had friends which use groups like this for other things and have had great sucsess, so I thought I'd tell you a little about myself..
So, for the last 5 or so years I have been battling depression & anxiety. The doctors have tried me on a few different medications but I've had no luck yet... I started off on propranolol, was then moved to Citalopram, then Mirtazapine and I am now on Setraline. I still feel as low as I did before, if not sometimes worse. The only thing I have found that will even take the edge off my anxiety is to use an electric cigarette. It's been a god send to calm me down when I get anxious. However, I still haven't found anything which helps with my depression. There are times when I feel as high as a kite and I feel so happy, but within minutes it can change to hysterical tears and anger. I'm so fed up of being the way that I am, I don't want the slightest thing to change my mood..
Jessie
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jemimah88932 jessiejessie
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anne240 jessiejessie
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Welcome to the forum and you will find it very supportive. We all understand how you feel as we all have depression/anxiety. If you find something that helps you cope, then that is a good thing. Carry on as you are. No after 30 years I have not found anything to rid me of depression as such. Things help ease it, as you have found, so whatever works for us and we get some relief from it that is great.
I have been very low these last couple of weeks, but I ride it out as I know there will come a time when I feel a bit brighter. We are all fed up, I know I am. I get stressed so easily and down I plummet. It is a very frustrating illness. I think we just have to live our life as best we can and learn to understand our moods.
jessiejessie anne240
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thank you for your reply & welcoming me to the group!
I agree and I am trying my best to accept me for who I am.
There are days where I feel so confident and feel I could conqour the world but usually the slightest thing will make that completely change.
Nessie91 jessiejessie
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i know I'm lucky and I've had this for about 9 months. I'm like a different person. I can't think how I was a Primcipal Teacher with 8'computer rooms and members of staff, with discipline that they couldn't hanldle referred to me. Now I've bought new phones and am completely stressed reading the manual. It's so,pathetic and I find myself keep apologising for things. When I'm really bad, my head gets scrambled and I can't retain information. The weird thing is that I pick up in the evening, then go to bed and the cycle starts again. Imwaken up,and there it is, anxiety and palpitations. Some days I just wish I,could close my eyes. I've been on various antidepressants and put on. Two and a half stone I'm weight round my stomach and that depresses me as none of my skirts or trousers fit me any more. I just can't see a light at the eNd of the tunnel.i really admire you for,coping with this for so long.
i find I'm starting to lose my friends as I can't do,what I,used to do, although I do,try to force myself t go out twice a day. So'eome asked ,em,what gave me joy and I could think of absolutely nothing except sleep,too blot it all out.
jessiejessie Nessie91
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I know exacly how you feel, the slightest thing can set me off, I never stop apologising either! it gets to the point my partner says "stop saying sorry" and I will reply with "okay, sorry" I have been suffering with a "fuzzy" type feeling in my head for the last year or so where I can't physically think about anything at all. It can sometimes take me an hour just to pay an online bill or something because I feel so fuzzy.
I also find I pick up in the evenings, I sleep so much and I am still always tired, when I wake up in the mornings I feel so lathargic and sleepy and I will be like this all day through work, on a good day I will get home and suddenly start blitzing the house or have a massive clear out, on a bad day I will usually go straight to bed!
I used to have a lot of friends and was very outgoing, I now literally have a handful of friends which are - my mum, my fiance (and my dogs!).
Try not to get hung up about loosing friends, if they can't support you through this, were they really friends in the first place?
It sounds cheesy, but maybe try and find a hobby? I love drawing and when it goes right it does make me happy, but on the downside when I fail I tend to get frustrated & down again.
anne240 Nessie91
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I have been on lots of different anti depressants, taken an overdose, been in a psychiatric hospital, seen different psychiatrists and counsellors. Lost jobs, a home, relationships all because of depression. I am still here and still battling. I am an old lady now, and not strong, but I just accept the good days and ride out the low days as best I can. Not any easy illness to live with, but what else can we do?
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There are days where I feel so confident and like I could do anything, and then usually something comes along and turns that completely upside down and I feel hopeless and my head feels completely fuzzy.
My partner is so special and has helped me through so much of this already, which I will be forever greateful for. He understands the signs now of when I'm having a bad day and need to be left alone.
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Nessie91 jessiejessie
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what Dave says is correct. I'm on 2 x 40 mg tablets a day for that. What you need to watch is that it can in a few cases cause low blood pressure but it slows your heart rate..
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