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My ex called me yester morning and told me he and his girlfriend were expecting and not only that they were having twins,
My heart sank alittle and although happy for him and even when I heard myself telling him congratulations I was sad.
We were young lovers who dated for many years. Like many past relationships my personality exhausted any chances of a future with him or a family for that matter. We were always trying not to get pregnant when together and when he mentioned that he was somewhat trying to conceive (a whatever happens happens attitude) with his girlfriend I was jealous.
Jealous of the life I could of had and jealous of the children I'll probably never get (that's a whole other story)
My anxiety and depression has cost me relationships in the past some I feel could have really blossomed.
But how can you change someone's DNA, well you can't.
And as I watch the people around me grow and flourish I'm still the same 12 year old insecure girl who ate alone at lunch.
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