My experience? I could be here for hours. i am bulimic a...
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My experience? I could be here for hours. i am bulimic and have been for over 3 months now. before the binge eating started i was on the verge of anorexia. im 20 and have had weight issues my whole life. ive endlessly tried dieting only to fail over and over again. a few months ago i decided to really put sum effort in to it. and i did it. i lost a lot of weight and i looked good and people wre always commenting on how good i looked, how skinny i was, how sexy i was etc etc. they were good comments-but really that was just feeding my addiction to be more skinner.
one day i decided to treat myself to a biscuit. it was the best damn biscuit in my life. i had another biscuit and another one. and then i got out of control and ate everything in my sight. i found a bottle of laxatives in the cupboard and downed large amounts of that. since that day, my bingeing and purging has been a regular thing. i spend a lot of the time up all nite with stomachaches and on the toilet. its bad but its uncontrollable. i actually cannot control this thing anymore. it is so overwhelming. after i binge i say right tomorrow im goin to start afresh i am going to have all this willpower and i am going to beat this. it never works.
i feel so sad and empty that this thing is ruling my life. i never ever saw myself in this position. its still hard to believe its me. I AM BULIMIC. wow. sometimes when i talk about it, it feels like im talking about someone else.
im in counselling but ive only had a few sessions and so far im not getting anywhere. i also go through horrible bouts of depression because of it, i hate myself, i feel like crap afterwards.and still i do it. i feel ashamed and disgusting and like a pig. after i beat this, because i will, i am goin to use my experience to help others in the same boat. because now i know how it feels to be alone in something like this. noone else understands what u are going thru. there needs to be better ways to help people. im asking for help and i feel like noone is taking me seriously or they dont know what to do. and i just cant do this alone.
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I am getting some help from the doctors at the moment, and see a psychologist doing CBT.
It is helping, and hopefully there will come a day when i dont obsess about food 24/7, and can just enjoy 1 slice of cake, instead of the whole thing!
I also hate being sick, which is quite funny for a bulimic!
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I'll say it again: Tomorrow will be different. Tomorrow I will conquer this. Tommorrow will be the start to a new life, a life that does not revolve around diet and eating. Tomorrow I will be strong. I'm not religious but dear God, please help me have the will power and the strength to beat this. Good luck to everybody else out there! We CAN do this!!!!!!