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Have I a child bug? Or is it more serious! Utsore#
So not me, I need help! Hey, its passing!!!
Feel alone!!!!
Thisn is not right!
My nerves havr gone.Like someone posessed. I need the lou!!!!!
I am sore!
Take care!
Prob be in touch soon!
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Most of all, I cant get rid of the images I see!! And they are from long ago, but since my partner gave up on patience, they are long lived!
I feel so un powerful, like a shrug or something!!!!I just feel waisted!!!
\\\\\\\\\\i cant look in the mirror!! I do not like what I see if I do. if I do, I am there for hours!!! If i do , Iwant to throw, if i cant Htrow up , I take laxatives!!! I know this is no good! My best friend had anorexia nervosa, but I cant escape these images. They disturb me. Now my partner fell out with me, it has brought it up again!!!! Iwas strangled, fell unconscious and attacked ;after 4 mnths of being stalked1 i KNOW iT WAS A very long time ago, but Irelied on my partner at that time. Now , I feel Icant trust ANYONE! No one can understand!!! I am sooo confused and lost, but yet; I so desperatley want to be happy for my children. THANK YOU FOR LISTENING!!! Does any of this , make any sense, to you?
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I am so tired of picking things up after my children...last week I gave up my little part time job. I lost it!!! Completely!!
Next week, my mum goes into hospital! She has had enough surgery to last her a lifetime!!!!
i feel alone, drinking like a fish out of water, and cannot eat!\I want me back!!!!
I have no concentration , I cant focus until I am secure in the knowledge , that my mum will be fine again,(I feel partially to blame, for her pain). Even , if she quits her fight, I just want to be there for her!!!
I feel, though, that meantime, i am hurting my children, as I need to be there for them; as much as I need them!!!
Then I feel drained! I feel my mother is controlling me, again!
My best friend is expecting her third child, and has been very sick!!! She has a dislocated pelvis and suffers from ME. (not me), yet! But feel suffocated, need to be there for my mum, but need to make friends for myself!So confused!!! Tired!!!Does any of this make any sense!
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When I looK in the mirror, I see what he saw, ,,and i find it disturbing....even though we are talking 10 AND A HALF YRS AGO, IT STILL HURTS!
My partner was quite viscious not soo long ago, and yes, we are still together. (but I think its brought issues up). The idea of splitting up with him...leads me on to think...that the lack of communication etc...will lead to something like this happening ; and makes me feel very sick!!!!I feel like a complete failure!!!I really do not want to speak to anyone who does not understand!!! Or who judges!!!!
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I slept for 3 and a half hours last night....thats a record!!!
(Sorry, when I mentioned about being judged, I did not mean you....not at all.....I meant by others.).
How are you???
I thought it was a Saturday today. I nearly forgot to take my children to school!!! (What a complete tool!!!).
I think I feel better after talking to you.
Although worried about taking the 13th post!
Take care and pls keep in touch, Tiny Tears!
Wish your mum luck from me. My mum has a hospital consultation today too!
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No offence to you!!!!!, But I cant believe I liet my spew out on a public forum!!!!!Can you believe you have to?????!!!!!! I dont know what to do. Feeling depressed!!!!! Do you think , the fact that my partner tried to strangle me , a couple of weeks back, still is domestic abuse.....or is this my interpreation of events????!!!!Am I therefore the completely selfish messed up, evil twisted bi...h, that he says I am, am I????Where do I go from here??????I am so confused.!!!!
I dont want my children coming from a broken home!!!!!!!It makes things like what we have gone through, easier for the nasty evil twisted, scarybs, that live in this world!!!!
But what gets my back up,is that I went for help, before the real sh*t happened......if its going to happen, its going to happen!!!!!!!Thats how I have to look at the situation I am in now.....I suppose!!!!!!
I am so confused!!!! my tummy is sore agin, too much caffeine!!!!!Ugh!!!!!What gets to me, is if one of my good friends were to turn round and tell me how they are damaging their bodies, I would be really upset!!!!! (So, pls, hush , hush!!!!_ Thats why I cant understand me!!!!!! The more I cant understand it all!!!! The worse it all gets!!!!!Do you understand me.....or am I a complete looney......am I going to be like this for the rest of my short lived life? Does it come from having BDD,? I think I had this when I was a teenager...thats probably it, and all these events have just reinforced my self loathing!!!!! Pls, someone help....this cant continue!!!!!
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