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Hello people, I'm 18 and at the moment I feel as if though my life is at a standstill. I've always been an anxious person, my anxieties mainly centre around my health. A couple of months back I expericened very frightening heart flutters/skipped beats that occured randomly as I was just sitting down which absolutely terrified me, I genuinely thought I was dying. I went to the doctors and I was examined and I got an ECG done and everything came back fine besides a rapid pulse. The doctor told me not to worry and then gave me some beta blockers to take whenever I felt my heart beating fast. However to be safe he referred me to the cardiology unit in the nearest hospital, however the long waiting list may require me to wait several months.
Furthermore, since I experienced these palpitations I am obsessed with my heart. I am constantly checking my pulse, I check my pulse at least about 40 times a day. Whenever I notice my heart beating rapidly I seem to get extremely anxious and then get full blown panic attacks in which I get an overwhelming sense of fear rushing through my body and my breathing goes all funny. I get at least 3-4 panic attacks a week, sometimes for no reason at all.
Basically I have no life at the moment, my life consists of worrying about my health and worrying that people are judging me. I hardly ever go out and socialise, because I'm scared that I'm being judged and scared of having a panic attack or palpitations. I've gone from a fairly social person to a recluse person that isolates himself from everyone. My family are concerned about me and I think it's really affecting them and it really breaks my heart.
I know that life is short and that I'm young and my whole life is ahead of me, but these feelings of worry are overwhelming. I've always wanted to travel and see the world, however I'm stuck in a spiral that I can't exit..It's consuming me and I have little hope for my future because of the way things are going
Should I go see a GP about this? What are your opinions? I just need someone's input and I'd like to see if anyone else have experienced anything similar. Thank you so much for reading through this
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