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Hi I'm kayla, I'm 19, and I have had anxiety since I was in 9th grade. Up until recently I went to the doctors for my anxiety. I got prescribed citalopram. Here's some background on my history with anxiety.
I started feeling super dizzy my freshmen year in high school, I missed a lot of school because of it. I also felt anxious and felt like I couldn't breath. I changed my diet, started distracting myself to not feel the anxiety but nothing ever worked for a long period of time.
I have felt on and off anxiety these past years where one week I will feel fine and the next week I feel terrible. I try to take it a day at a time but days turn into weeks and my anxiety just never seems to fully go away. I went to a natrualpath because my mother overdosed on xanix my senior year, and I didn't want to become dependent on medication. I tried all the natrual pills to help, I ate foods that were supposed to help lower anxiety, I tried to excersise more, and sleep more. But still none of that would fully last because I can never sleep because I have insommnia, I would eat good but then one little snack or doughnut would just bring me back to square one, and working out was hard because I feel little motivation.
I am in school full time, I have a job, and I have had a hard life, having my mother pass, and my dad in prison I understand why I have anxiety so bad. I am a little depressed to where I have no motivation, I would rather sleep all day, and I'm super emotional. So when I went to the doctors they told me I had anxiety and depression and so that gave me a little bit of a reassurance because my blood tests came back fine.
My symptoms however drive me crazy. I can't sleep insommnia, I have shortness of breath, I feel like I am being suffocated like someone is choking me, I have back neck and shoulder pain which just recently got really bad. I have I.B.S (irrable bowl symdrome), I have blurry eye sight sometimes, I feel lightheaded sometimes, I get so overhwelhmed at once with anxious feeling, I am tired all the time, I have muscle twitches, I am consipated, or have diarrhea, I feel like I have to force myself to breath, or there is a tight band around my rib cage, I sometimes get numbness and tingling in my hands and feet, dry mouth, difficulity swallowingI constantly worry about what's wrong with me, do I have a serious illness, cancer, and so on. I don't have heart palpatations but I get these pains in my left boob under the rib cage and on the side near my armpit that worry me because for the past month I have this thought that I'm having a heart attack, but I'm healthy and don't smoke, I'm not over weight, and no heart problems in my family so I am trying to stay postive.
I google all my problems though, which makes it worse and drives my boyfriend crazy because he is always trying to help me. Anxiety has just taken over my life and I hate the physical symptoms that have taken over. It's like anxiety runs my life. Now recenlty I think I have a blood clot in my leg because I have a pain. I am scared that will break off and go to my lungs and then I'll have a worse problem. I notice that when I over think things the symptoms become more apprent to me and I think then that I have that problem. I don't want to be the girl who cries wolf, the one who keeps going to the doctor on a regular basis because she thinks everything is wrong. But I want to know that I am okay. I am sorry this is so long but I just want some reassurance to keep my mind at peace. Any advice would be helpful! Thanks
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