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Omg, I can't handle this anxiety, nausea, depression and constant shaking.
iI know I have complained of this a lot but I so desperately need help.
I just don't want to go on like this anymore. I try to be strong but this agony drains it out of me. I hate being the way I am.
Laurie
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carl58303 laurie12351
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Hang in there, Laurie! It is really horrible now but in a few weeks you'll be out of the nightmare and into the light and happiness.
Forgive yourself and accept yourself as you are right now - soon you will feel like a different person.
The only thing I found that helped at your stage was distraction. For me, the best was movies and box sets. In this weather, maybe you could force yourself to go for a walk. Talking is always good - not just about how terrible you feel but also getting involved with what your friend is telling you about his/her life.
Distract yourself - it's about getting out of your head, putting aside your whirling thoughts. It's horrible but you won't die from it so distraction is the name of the game. What works best for you?
laurie12351 carl58303
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Thank you Carl,
I really am trying, but the longer this goes on the harder it gets.
Im not good company for anyone so I won't make others uncomfortable.
I am trying to fight thoughts of suicide when it's bad.
I just want to be normal, calm and happy again.
carl58303 laurie12351
Posted
Hi Laurie
As you are having suicidal thoughts and don't want to make others uncomfortable, why don't you ring Samaritans? You speak anonomously to a person who will not judge you, who just listens and listens. I used to be one.
How many weeks in are you and what is your dose? I really wanted to give up but now, maybe three years later, I've never been happier, even have moments of pure joy. You can be normal, calm and happy again - but, infortunately, that comes at the other side of a nightmare. SOm stick with it - and find whatever distracts you. Have you tried a movie yet? Which is your favourite?
laurie12351 carl58303
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I'm 2 and 1/2 weeks in on 20mg Prozac. I also take 50mg quetipine 3 times a
day and my psychiatrist just added 25mg lamotrigen. I have clonazepam for when I need it, but I took .5mg yesterday and it actually made me more depressed. I don't know if it's reacting with the Lamotrigen. Thank you for the Idea of the Samaritians. Is that in Ontario?
Thank you so much Carl for all your ideas and support. It helps my heart that you reply with no judgement.
I look for a few words of support on this site is every day.
Laurie
laurie12351 carl58303
Posted
Does that happen?
I just feel like crying all the time. Also trying to control panic.
carl58303 laurie12351
Posted
Ah! Ontario. Samaritans are British, like me - though I'm sure there is an equivalent organisation in Canada - yeah! Google suicide crisis line Ontario - there are a couple you can choose from.
My knowledge of your drugs ran out after 20mg Prozac., I'm afraid. Everything I say has to do with Prozac only, I have no idea how it interacts with the other drugs you take. That is for your Psychiatrist. What we do here is support each other - I know how important it is to know you are not alone.
carl58303 laurie12351
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That brings us back to distraction - something to help us forget we are anxious and depressed, even for a minute to begin with.
Whilst it varies with each person, I was at my worst between weeks 2 and 3. I so hope the worst will soon be over for you, Laurie.
Oh! and chocolate.
craig05866 carl58303
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My worst time was weeks 2 and 3. Then by the end of week 4 I got some relief i.e. parts of days were better. As Carl says, you are not alone, so hang in there. Hope you are doing ok.
laurie12351 craig05866
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Im holding on. One day at a time.
All the support from the people on this site gives so much hope.
I hope you and your family are doing well.
Laurie
Guest laurie12351
Posted
How are you doing Laurie? ????
laurie12351 Guest
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Hi Laura,
Im still hanging in. Some of my evenings are better. Still waking up with anxiety and nausea but I have had a couple of days that it has been less. And then it gets bad again. I just hope the depression starts to improve . I'm afraid of upping my dose of Prozac for the side effects to start all over again in a horrible way. I'd like to know if the side effects get better first and the depression follows or should they get better at the same time?
How are you doing?
carl58303 laurie12351
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How are you doing now, Laura? You 'should' be feeling better - but it ain't necessarily so.
Fingers crossed that things are on the up for you.