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In the middle of 2014 I suffered a nervous breakdown that nobody saw coming except me, my husband had a very hard time accepting that I had been under way too much stress and so home life became very difficult at this time....he now sees it and feels really bad about causing a lot of that stress.
After years of stress where I said nothing as I had leart to bottle things up and smile so no-one knew there was a problem....
Bullied at school (started when about 10)
Changed school, bullied daily and injured regularly
Changed school, suffered sexual harrassment traveling, numerous adult male stalkers for next 3 years.
Work life, more sexual harrassment and extreme chemical exposure
Victim of random attempted sexual assault/kidnap, conviction and court case followed
New-born death, months in hospital, birth defects
Pregnancy, months in hospital, pulmonary embolism, successful birth
Heart attacks when baby 8 weeks
Pregnancy emergency C-section, helicopter rides etc
Continued severe chest pains for next 6 years
Really poor living conditions for 9 years after buying property (cash, no debt) and DH finding every reason to not build house as intended (still can't figure that out), good tradesman just didn't think women should be treated too well (Taming of Shrew theory)
Sued by charming mother-in-law over property dispute, won case but took three years and $70k and lots of stress
Good friend called to see if I'd leave DH, commit suicide week later after I said 'No' (stupid for not leaving when I had the chance)
Sold property and bought one with house, but big, big debt, building industry work unstable so there was a lot of financial stress
House burnt down (Oh Crap), back to living in poor conditions despite insurance paying up, DH wouldn't contemplate rebuilding until after insurance money all gone (undercut on insurance, watch those snakes)
More work instability, subdivided and sold half property to reduce debt, just in time before bank foreclosed....lots and lots of stress.
Went on trip to UK with daughter on Scholarship for 3 months...first time in 20 odd years where I didn't feel highly stressed
Neighbour well known psycho, abusive, dobs into government departments all the time (psychiatrist told me most people breakdown after dealing with just her alone for less that two years and I lasted eight years, made the record woo hoo)
New battle because of neighbour after return from UK and another miscarriage, started drinking and crying lots (hadn't cried for 18 years, not even when father died) unable to cope with general life, started behaving in ways out of character, total meltdown.
I know I have forgotten a few disasters in this list
Issued DH with ultimatum of do something with the house or I'm not coming back after UK trip....got floor layed and other stuff done but admitted that he didn't take the threat seriously.
I'd had enough of not having a kitchen and living on dirt floors with inadequate or no walls to keep out the cold and damp....yes I am a very patient and long suffering fool
....and yet my DH thought I'd be fine coping with all this continuously and failed to see this coming, I was getting very worried in 2012 as to where I was headed.
Why are the people closest to us the ones that seem to notice last that there is a problem?
This is very frustrating indeed.
Doctors and psych were amazed I didn't breakdown years ago.
So 12 months on I am still in a slow recovery, going to meditation, having acupuncture, taking a natural seritonin supplement, rhodiola extract for adrenals etc
Psych wants me to take AVO on neighbour because he thinks she'll break it and he can then have her locked up but I can't cope with the stress of doing it even with his backing and police protection, maybe soon. She is seriously really bad!!!!
Recovery is a lot slower than I thought it would be, probably would be faster if I could get away from home and go on a loooong holiday
I get away from home as often as possible even if it is just for a couple of days.
I find it amazing that some people struggle to see that I was justified in having a nervous breakdown....I wish they could walk in my shoes
DH is a good man and lots of fun, just not very observant if someone is suffering....go figure
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