new here worried

 I need to try have a bath and avoiding going toilet. It is agony.

Think I still feel this not real I mean I know I said would end things with I am seeing. Also take a break from guys be single but looks like because of this I will for a long time. I feel down a bit unable to walk. The pain awful. 

I cannot tell family my mum only worry. Think.try a bath feel I being punished for something. 

Hey 

Can I ask does this make you feel really run down? Aswell as everything else.

I feel very bad today really exhausted.I really am struggling to do things.

I feel really annoyed now thinking of this. No one knows about this. My mum will only panick.

That is normal. That is your immune system fifhting the infection. I slept constantly for like 4days straight. It took a good two weeks till my normal energy levels came back.hang in there.

I basically cannot tell anyone told a friend. Just ashamed really I can't even tell u all the truth feel I brought this on myself.This guy knows but feel he now avoiding me not responding. He was not good to me before and was going to end it anyway. Without him realizing think he dropped himself in it. I think as we been on and off I said I cannot be angry at you of u did have another woman while we was apart. I was no saint either he pushed me so far. But feel sorry if he going round sleeping with someone and she may have it. We never know how we got it. I mean I am a funny person if I sleep with someone without protection and.say we seeing each other then before going with someone else would go clinic for check ups. My last check up was not long ago. And said in January check again. But u can have this years without knowing and worse thing since breaking up child's father there been guys and because of feeling like I been infertile I been having unprotected sex to see if one.of these guys get me preg. A friend whom I got.close too uses condoms my life so complicated think.my actions just caused this. No one fault but my own. I blame this guy because before june even though he was making me sh*t it was all about hin. Theb ended I went off the rails.Went on this crazy rollercoaster ride. Now suppose this forced me to stop. 

I'm not sure how I feel about this really. I got moved feelings right now. Just keeping it all bottled up. It christmas and going try not think about it. I totally feel lost like this was meant to happen this guy and definitely no longer see each other. 

Just I know I will find someone one day.

I was up 2 in morning having bath with salt felt painful and I had to feel something with cold water while weeing. I feel tingling like to say more blisters coming out. Is this normal? Let me tell you what was given from clinic.

My posts arrrrgggggghhh. Typed too and gone.

I have been on and off with this guy since june then before than it was him. But felt he was using me and think he was seeing other women very secretive. Anyway I ended it was so hurt by him being distant was only available in evening always busy. I am not going to lie there were other guys. I know this my own fault. Having unprotected sex was because I had been testing myself with each man because feel infertile. Hoping a miracle would happen. Although each time would be in clinic checking myself. Always was down there bet they sick of seeing. I went off rails. Got back with my this guy whom was on and off with 4.mths later. I was not the same with him. I believe now hw also had other women. I had thrush real bad made him wear condom and was told.by nurse looked like herpes. But other doctor and nurse said no although I know it was just thrush this pain extremely bad. So all this that happening my.punishment. I feel this guy and I definitley be over. Think meant to be because he just using and hated wearing protection. I could of had this for years. From 18 until 22 think I met a lot of guys. As teen never had boyfriends was shy. Then had stillbirth and I was rapee before that about 17. I met son's dad and were together 7 and half years. Then since 2013 I went off rails felt like I was nothing so being with guys or then wanting me made me feel good. So here I am now all brought on not meant to be happy. I experiencing everything.

I'm on Aciclovir. Instillagel lidocaine, HC I 2%

with chlorhexidine gluconate. Was told when real bad well. This so bad down there don't feel it will help. I had bath with salt went wee and poured cold water over myself. Cannot sleep tonight. What a christmas.

Cannot tell family or friends. Well told one person but she don't understand. I did tell this guy but not heard from him since think he angry and dropped himself in it really with realizing. I said while we apart cannot be angry if u slept with someone so u should tell them. He said he will but think he be seeing women while we were together too. I rambling at 4.55am no one to talk to.

Thanks for reading and giving great advice.

Is that a possibility that you have this before, maybe.. But I think not as likely. I think unless your immune system is compromised from something really bad, you're either asymptomatic or you're not.

I'm not sure if cold water helps, but warm water does if you just soak in the bath. With your first ob, you just have to let it run its course. My sores didn't start healing up till week 3 and I still had neuropathy. 

I think you should share w a best friend. I even told a good friend tonight and she didn't even blink. She was like: this is the big secret you had all this time? She did not think it was a big deal and said she has married friends w herpes. I know it feels bad now, but it'll get better. When heathetlynn posted for the first time, I was one of the first to respond to her and she clearly sounds like she's in a different place that. She was just a few weeks back and that's great to read. Hang in there.

I'm just feeling all over the place. Got to try now put this aside next too days. What if I am the carrier gosh don't understand this still need to read up. I just not had any guy say they had a problem down there. For.this to come out now. 

It really too sore feel really unwell. Oh told the doctor I have sores in my mouth. Tell me if you tingling still does it mean more blisters coming out. Feel like more have. I know this get easier but feel tired had a lot going on already. This something I will always have right? Will I have to tell my doctor this? Too many things going round my head.

Well, like many men... They may know they have it, hut not tell you. The guy I was w knew he had it, but lied to me. There's also a chance someone didn't know they had it, because they don't get outbreaks. If you're breaking out in your mouth too, sounds like you contracted hsv1. You will have this for the rest of your life unfortunately and you should always tell people you have it. For me, new sores didn't stop appearing until a week and a half in to two weeks from the onset of symptoms. Everyone is different, buy for me the first two weeks were the worst. I think tingling is a sign that the virus is present at the surface, but itching is usually the sign that sores are going to pop up

How did u manage going toilet as today couldn't go far. Had to get rest of my shopping. I had a bath again feels.so much better with salt in. I do find pouring cold does help this blisters still coming out.

Well this guy not responded to me. Well I know if he has been.sleeping about with whoever he have to.explain to.them. This why he may be upset. He not sort of person though to tell face.to face.

I am going to try enjoy two days. Told a friend of mine she was shocked but said hope u don't have it. Doctor said looks like it. Any chance this.could come back negative. Even though have all symtoms?

I am in a better place. I  still have my moments but I  decided to live and try to kick this nasty hbomb's ass!! I  have no problem admitting your support and this site have been a pure blessing!!

I usually got in the tub, sat in warm shallow water and went to the bathroom. It was the only thing that made it bearable. 

No sorry honey, I know it's hard to accept, but you have all the classic symptoms of herpes. I was hoping the same thing and wishing it was cainkoid disease, but your symptoms are undeniably herpes. My blood test came back negative the first time I got tested, because my body hadn't created antibodies yet, due to the infection being new. However, my lesion swab test came back positive. 3 months later, I got tested again and came up positive in the blood teat. You should also get yourself tested for everything else and do it again 3 months from now, as certain diseases such as HIV wmay not show until 3 months after exposure. 

You don't have to say where you are from, but I can tell you are from an Asian country. If by chance it is Japan, they have the highest rate of herpes infections, than any other first world countey and i is very common. So don't feel bad.

Good, I'm so glad to hear. That's why I come to this site and always respond to someone newly infected. I know all too well what it felt like and the devastation behind it. They really just need some support and to hear from people who are living through it, that you will get through it and one day you'll come to realize that it's nothing more than an inconvenience now

I got my results as expected results positive. Will go back speak to health advisor.

Really sorry to hear. Hang in there. You'll be OK. How are you feeling physically?