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I'm VERY new to all this anxiety/depression stuff and am just looking for a few answers or if anyone has gone through something similar for advice.
Going to be a long post so if you've got a minute to read i would greatly appreciate it...
I have just recently been experiencing sever anxiety/depression. This all stems from what the doctor thinks of a masking type situation. I lost my father to a massive heart attack when he was 41, he had his first when he was 34 when i was 15 and really lost direction after that. I'm 25 now and am still in the same funk now as i was then. I began absuing alcohol at an early age (17) and never really stopped until about 2 months ago. I have a 2 year old daughter and had my blood pressure checked and was told i was having sympotms of a stroke. Day after my last bender I thought I was having a heart attack and decided to stop drinking cold turkey cause i want to be here for here. After that day, the anxiety and depression has hit SUPER hard. It goes from thinking i'm dying every 2 mintues to wanting to just end it all and be done. I have times i want to be around for my daughter then i have times where it seems like it wouldn't matter if i'm here or not. I'm experiencing sever vertigo and dizziness, heart palpatations, werid pains, and pretty much anything you could think of. I decided enough was enough and went to the doctor last week and he decided after about 15 minutes of talking, my problems were treatable with Celexa/Citalopram, the doc also took 2 viles of blood and did a urine test and everything came back clean except for high liver function but that's to be expected and yet i still think i'm dying and am afraid to go to sleep cause i dont know if ill wake up..I have never taken anything close to this type of medication. I grew up in a small town where the motto is just rub more dirt on it if you get hurt, worked in the oilfield for a while and have just recently started my own trucking company. Not like I have a lot to be derpessed about but damn it's always around. Like i said my anxiety at times is almost su unbearable i can't stand it, then i'll have good days where life is awesome..I guess i'm just looking for some advice as to what to expect and any general ideas of good habits to form while taking this stuff. I was prescribed celexa 20mg to be taken every night and i'm starting my first round tomorrow night with a follow up visit to the doc on the 23rd..
My blood pressure has been coming back down and seems more managable now...just looking for and advice or comments..anything helps me think im not crazy or dying...thanks for taking the time to read this means a lot and feels good to get it down out of my head..hope everyone has a good day!
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