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hey, my doctor today put me on 30mg citalopram for panic disorder. iv been reading some of the side effects and iv seen that things get worse before they get better. about 10 days before things improve.
im rather concerned about starting on my new mediation because i really feel rock bottom at present. i cant leave the house and im starting to wonder wats the point? please can someone give me some advice on how to handle this and about the medicine.
i do want to get my life back on track as i remember having so many goals however at the moment its looking like im on the road to no where!
thank you for your time in reading this. i hope to hear from someone
maria x
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im rather concerned about starting on my new mediation because i really feel rock bottom at present. i cant leave the house and im starting to wonder wats the point? please can someone give me some advice on how to handle this and about the medicine.
i do want to get my life back on track as i remember having so many goals however at the moment its looking like im on the road to no where!
thank you for your time in reading this. i hope to hear from someone
maria x[/quote:8498a17261]
Hi Maria
I know where you are coming from, it took me/docs a few attempts before finding the right thing for me....................Try and remember that it's early days with a new med VERY EARLY days. Unlike many people although I've had minor side effects they have not been half as bad as how I was feeeling before. I started on 20mg, after 2 months went up to 40mg and (touchwood) life is good I'm back at work and almost normal.
Stay with it and tc xxxxxx
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Turning point for me was when I came home one night and 'spacked' out throwing valuables against the wall and sat outside of my flat at 3am. To begin with taking these tablets is scary because its admitting you have something wrong plus its sorting out chemicals in your head- whats harder is not being able to explain/excuse the behaviour its so hard!!! especially when you have to perform at work and be good to your mates. Its weird because you can not see it, you can only feel it so working out if your happy because of pills or because of situations is a wee bit odd ( just dont look too much into them)
Ive always been emotional but it got out of control..inexplicable bitchyness, feeling so low you wonder what being hit by a train would feel like, feeling tired, wishing everyone would quieten down, being REALLY angry at happy people, crying all the time, staring, really huge highs really low lows- generally feeling quite stupid and alienated- alienated because you have a constant commentary in your head which is often very negative. Ive been heartbroken twice this year and a combination of that and my job and just everyday-ness has just over split the balance which my lovely gp has explained. I feel pretty sh*t today but for us women you get the added bonus of PMT so im hoping its a combo of that.
The biggest thing for me is that I am a young career woman with great family, mates and a job thats why I find this so hard to accept and explain..I feel really self-indulgent. I often blame my housemates as they are in relationships and I mess up every potential relationship for fear of something better. Thats one of my problems with depression it makes me hugely inpatient with life, not even the little things like queues im fine with them im just not fine with the bigger picture. When I started taking them I felt brilliant for a few weeks then started drinking too much and then it took a few steps back- so ive stopped the drinking for a bit and just dealing with it all. Socialising can be a bit hard when your in this state cant it!!
I think we just gotta take them and support each other, no one else quite understands how hard it is to deal with- im always suprised everday when im snappy or in a foul mood I just need time to accept and get better....so my advice to you Katy is dont put pressure on yourself because you are really not alone in this. My email isnt full of glory but hopefully lets you into how it is for me- I have been told it will get sorted and this will go away just try and realise what the root of the problem is if you can and recognise what you have... oh and do excercise something really intense and then something like tai chi it really helps if only for a couple of hours a week: )
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