No hope, living through hell since 12. Still so many fears at 20. Need answers and guidance
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I've had so many symptoms through 8 years like it would take all day to write them all down here. To begin from dizziness 24/7 clumsy feeling, lasted for like 2 years, had difficulty talking felt like it was harder to talk and I could mix words, felt like mouth/jaw was heavier, incredible feeling in the tongue, that symptom drove me mad! Felt like my tongue could hit my airway any second, when the sides were affected it felt like a coffee burn or something, too weird to explain.. to dizziness upon moving my head and/or eyes, I could get a sense of like a shock, unstable, it was too crazy to explain correctly. All of those have left, but right now for many months I am having issues with my heart, it feels so racy during the days especially after I wake up, eat and smoke. Pains throughout my body, mostly neck shoulders, ribs feel sore (they always were) every part feels like sore, and it feels difficult to deep breathe sometimes, well to be fair this has always been there for me. Could it be due to my extremely bad posture ? I have sat in bad positions for all those years, like over 10 years, used to sit in front of PC non stop, if anything I am slim rather than overweight, though. Have had all the fears, from every possible cancer to every possible heart/blood vessels diseases, to the rarest autoimmune illnesses. Spent too much time diagnosing my self on google.
I don't even want to go to the doctors anymore, cause all they do is say it's anxiety. For real?!
Sure, I've had too many ECGS, ECHOdiagrams, Stress tests, 24h monitoring, CT of head, so many blood tests, x-rays of neck/back, and many more tests and the only thing they found was mild scoliosis.
At this moment I feel like crying, like my death is nearing, I am angry over anything, I don't want to enjoy anything, I do not laugh, all I have is fear and anger.
Now I am wondering when will the heart attack just happen?
Will I fall very very sick before dying?
I am not going to university because I don't feel like I may have a future.
I am on 50mg Sertraline and 0.25 Xanax daily for like 5 months, do not feel a difference though, used paroxetines before, still nothing seems to help.
PLEASE GUIDE ME, in desperate need of help asap 
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anika94259 fear02522
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Sorry to hear what you are going through. Firstly, have you seriously been feeling dizzy everyday for the past 2 years or more like vertigo. That doesn’t sound right.
Secondly, you need more confidence in your life. You should use non conventional medical options. I read lots of books on spiritual healing and I got better and also changed the way i was thinking by reading and doing course on rewiring the brain
elizabeth75605 anika94259
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Hi that's great to hear you found a good remedy. Do you recommend any books? I try to be more spiritual but sometimes it feels like nothing works besides the meds to calm me down. I'm trying to be more natural but it can be hard for me. Thank you for sharing.
anika94259 elizabeth75605
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Hi Elizabeth,
You have to be consistent in practicing spiritual methods. I did a course called the Lightning Process which was fantastic and changed my life. Google it
I did the course in NZ but I know they have it in the UK. And a book you can read is The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle.
elizabeth75605 anika94259
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anika94259 fear02522
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eva98245 fear02522
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Ask your doctor to check your lithium level
Im on the same meds like u plus lithium ,cause low level can play with your brain
jan34534 fear02522
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I am so sorry you are going through this and it must be so scary for you.
But I want you to know that I have had every one of your symptoms when I was in my twenties. I know how frightening it feels and I too thought that I had a terrible condition. My tests were also normal so I thought “How can they be normal with all these symptoms?.”
So I want you to know that I am now in my fifties and still alive and doing well,
There IS Always Hope!
Some things I learned through the years:
—Any symptoms related to anxiety cannot hurt you even though they feel scary.
The brain sends out adrenaline that causes rapid heart rate when we are stressed. It Won’t hurt you or cause heart damage or heart attack. I have had palpitations hundreds of times as well as millions of other people. So your heart is fine.
?—Anxiety Symptoms are not the problem. The problem is unmanaged anxiety which causes symptoms. Symptoms are the body’s way of telling you that you have too much stress and anxiety.
— I was struggling with all my symptoms alone and finally spoke with a counselor who was very helpful. They see this every single day and know how to help. It really feels good to vent to someone else in person who has great ideas and provides guidance and support. I highly recommend you do the same!
— I have to go to physical therapy because I had bad pposture for many years and I was having terrible neck shoulder pains. I was also told that stress can cause bad neck, shoulder, back pain because the muscles tighten up.
— I learned that doctors can’t do much for anxiety except prescribed medication. The reason is that they can’t actually see what we are going through. They can’t see it like they can see a broken bone. So the rest is up to us. That’s why I spoke with the counselor, I listen to meditations for stress and anxiety on YouTube which completely relax my mind, body and symptoms. If you listen to some of them regularly and noticed that they calm you down, then you know anxiety is the culprit. But it sounds like you’re very healthy except for the anxiety and stress. If there’s anyway you can cut back on smoking it would help a lot! Smoking constricts blood vessels which will also increase your heart rate.
— some other things that have helped me:
getting some form of exercise even if it’s walking only because exercise releases the feel-good hormones in the brain and it’s great to reduce stress, eating healthy, staying hydrated, doing things that make you feel happy and relaxed, And yes you can feel happy! Try not to take life too seriously.,
Do not let fear and anxiety control your life! You are the one in charge so be a fighter for yourself!
Let go of the negative thoughts because you are a healthy young man. You are struggling with something that millions and millions of other people also have. But it can be controlled. I do hope you are able to speak with a counselor for some guidance.
there is a book called Mindfulness that many people on this site are reading. It teaches you how to regain control of your peace of mind and How to eliminate negative thinking in control anxiety.. This method is taught all over the world and some of the meditations on YouTube are mindfulness meditation‘s.
Hope you feel better soon and remember I’m living proof that none of the symptoms can hurt you ??????😁
Italia06 fear02522
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i've been in your position before and going through it again for the second time in my life to this degree. every symptom you've mentioned i've had. likewise, the healthy worries similar. also, have spent a lot of time on the pc and almost had to laugh at your thought of bad posture causing a lot of issues as i've had the same sentiment now the past few years. i've even to the point of doing shoulder exercises and neck exercises daily due to the daily pain and worry stemming from this notion of poor posture. they found mild scoliosis for you and again all tests came back normal for me except and mri of my c3-c4 in my neck with minor issues to where they came me a print out of some neck exercises they want me to do daily. my posture was so bad i used to curl up in my computer chair to where my neck was folded forward with chin on chest watching youtube videos or whatever all day.
anyway, i could certainly walk in your shoes regarding all your experiences you describe above. obviously, they didn't see anything wrong with your heart so i would try to not worry about it. i've been struggling with all this for about 2 yrs now. i still have some dizziness as well that has never gone away. what i have noticed with myself is you just become too tired with worrying anymore as if it just happens naturally. luckily this helps alleviate a lot of the symptoms. it's like i've just come to this point i don't care anymore and incidentally have realized some symptoms disappear for a day or so...week maybe or longer. then you slowly begin to realize or at least entertain the notion that your doctor is correct and it's likely a mental health issue contributing to most of it; instead of your daily irrational belief that you have some progressive or terminal illness. anyway, good luck with this...just keep grinding each day and don't give up hope.