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a year ago a close relation inflicted severe trauma, and continues to cause trauma involving police and courts and court orders. the situation is not likely to change until at least april 2021 but possibly not then if the current trend
continues. i am diagnosed with sever depression and high anxiety all of situational or reactional causation. this means it doesnt respond to medication or to therapy. CMHT have discharged me 4 times, i have seen psychologists, psychiatrists, front line counsellors and DV counsellors. i am totally isolated with no support and do not feel that i want to live. i am well aware of my ability to make a new life but it is a life that doesnt appeal to me in the slightest, in fact i find the thought horrific. because i wont conform i cant be helped
apparently. yesterday was 2 arguments to crisis support in my area, samaritans, and sane line before i hit a handful of sleeping pills and today has been 3 calls to crisis support, call to CMHT, visit to GP, 6 hours in a&e, and an hour in the safe haven. i feel
no different, i still wish i was dead, i still have plans in place and yet i am asked to wait for tomorrow. nothing changes tomorrow .... any wise
words of wisdom?
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