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Unless they have it.....real depression.
When I have real depression I find it really hard to communicate period.
To get motivated.
To make appointments.
The last week has been extremely stressful for ME when the things that stress me out...don't stress out people that don't have anxiety and depression. I have people around me that DONT GET IT. You guys get it...which is why I am typing here...so someone just says I GET YOU.
We have an elderly person in our family and recently she has had many appointments...and I was struggling to keep my own appointments...and no one else is around to take her..everyone else is working.
I really feel like my head is going to explode each day this week. Plus I have had a stomach problem for the last 3 weeks and it is making me more crazy than usual.
I am snappy.
I feel like I'm falling off a cliff.
Example: Today...I knew I had to take our "Mom" to a Drs apt. but I didn't expect that she was going to ask me to run to another Dr. for something else...So I was at the Dr with her yesterday and I had given my Dad a ride - so I didn't get home till 5pm...then I cooked and cleaned until 8pm....and THAT WAS WAY TOO MUCH FOR ME...I felt like I wanted to drink (and I can't...I'm an alcoholic)....I really felt like stroking out. So today when she told me I had to go to ANOTHER Dr..(the same one we were at yesterday)...I could feel my head pound..but what she needed was important...even thou I had plans to DYE my hair the rest of the afternoon (which is a stressful process)..I HAD to take her.
So now..I'm beyond exhausted...and I keep complaining and my b/f just doesn't get it..he thinks I'm a whiner...he doesn't say that...but all his responses show it...and his responses are NOT insensitive..they are just normal responses...but I want to be BABIED...and BOWED to for doing all this stuff...when I feel really awful with major depression and anxiety...and now the bathroom problem...I don't sleep well.
I have a rocky relationship with EVERYONE around me...family. And when I say Rocky its really rocky.
Thank God I have therapy on Friday...OH...But...tommorow before my apt for my stomach....I have to go back to the Drs office for "Mom" because the Dr couldn't fill out the paper today and she NEEDS it. so BEFORE my apt..I have to get up earlier...and go about 10 miles up and 10 back...and then to a housing authority...and THEN to my Dr. And my Dr. is always a 3 hour TOUR...busy office.
I'm going to try not to get stressed..but it just happens...my blood pressure raises and even my anxiety pills aren't working...This is all killing me and no one around me gets that I am struggling so much. They just think I'm a b*tch!
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