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I don't know what is going on. I feel lost, stuck in a cave, in a dead end, or in a well with water and I can't get out. I'm 21 years old male. Have no friends, no family, nobody to talk to. Every day is the same for me. Nothing exiting happens. I wake up, go to work, go home and then go to sleep. (If I could sleep at all). It feels like if I was half awake and half asleep 24/7. It makes me sad when I see other people happy. It seems to me that everybody is enjoying life but not me.
Nobody talks to me at work. Sometimes I just start talking to them but then they look at me as if I was a weirdo!
I know that I'm intelligent because people have told me that before. I am good looking, have a pretty face but I'm skinny (6ft2 / 10 stone). (Always have been skinny, since I can remember). I've never had a gf before. Haven't even kissed a girl in my life!
Life is a viscous circle for me. Just gets worse and worse! I spend my weekends all alone in my flat. (Nothing else to do anyway). Nobody talks to me and I don't know why.
Went to the doctor last month coz I nearly killed myself! I don't see the point in living, when it hurts that much. He gave me flu 20mg for 4 weeks, I'm on 40mg now for 2 days. I don't feel them helping though. I'm experiencing a few side effects. Weird taste in my mouth, dry mouth, thirsty, sweaty hands, feel squeamish, All in all I feel like a zombie since I started taking them. Plus I don't really feel hungry, it's more like pain than hunger.
I better stop now I could go on and on forever.
Is there anybody out there who is like me?
Any help would be great.
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