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I am surrounded by people, yet I am all alone. I have such a deep emptiness inside. I am so full of sadness and pain and confusion. I know longer feel the presence of of my Savior. I just want to hide in a dark, dark room and disappear. Today is God's Holy Sabbath day. But I can't seem to find my Lord. I can't make it without Him, for I have no one else.

I am a very giving person by nature. It give me a sense of pleasure to help other and to see the joy in their eyes when they realize that I don't want anything in return. But these past two weeks have been extremely hard to find even a smile inside of me. The pain in my soul has finally matched the pain in my body. I am losing the will to continue on.

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    mina...please hang on in there. I know what you're feeling, been there many times myself. I ASSURE you, it does get better and even disappears for awhile!

    life is so CRAZY, just when we think we've got it all figured out, ba-bamm!...something hits us out of left field!

    the holidays are such "tricky" times of the year. they're either the absolute BEST or very much NOT!!

    I know. I've been at. both ends of the spectrum!!

    please keep in touch....there are lots of strangers out here who care...I know I DO!

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    Hi Mina,

    Please know you are not alone! Even though you cannot feel our Lords presence right now he is right there with you walking beside you in this trial. He will never abandon you! Say often Jesus I TRUST in you! All is well! Things will get better, you'll see! God bless... you are in my prayers! ❤

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    Try looking towards a bright light, once you have found one continue looking at this light.

    Close your eye's and use your imagination to bring this light towards you.

    Continue using your imagination this light will come towards you, imagine you are surrounding yourself with this light, it's almost like a sphere of light, there is nothing inside only you and light.

    You will feel the power of this light as it comes to you, you are this light, this light that shines in all of us.

    Read my profile.

    John

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    Hi mina - Time to get real and stop waiting for some "miracle." Get to the doc and explain what you are feeling - it may well be a diagnosis of depression. Depression is complex but can be roughly summarized as effects from a trauma, loss or injury; effects from child abuse; genetic predisposition. The brain is unable to complete the circuit of "feel good" chemicals like serotonin, dopamine and oxytocin. Antidepressants enable those chemicals to function in the brain elevating your mood. Meds will take 3-6 weeks to work. If there are any traumas that need to be addressed, a referral from your doc to a psychologist/therapist or counsellorn would be advised. This will allow you to pinpoint the causes of your depression, teach you how to recognise triggers and learning coping mechanisms.

    Psychiatric and psychological conditions should NEVER be "treated" by religion, insisting one "pray" or "implore God." You are a human with human frailties and your body is a machine. Things will go wrong and an intelligent, hands on approach is the only way to effectively and maturely deal with the situation. If your car runs out of gas you don't pray for it. You get up and fill the tank. Problem solved.

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    Apparently Wayne has never experienced the power of prayer. I'm not suggesting that someone should not try meds but they do not work for everyone and in MANY cases make people worse. God Bless!

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      barb - i'll thank you not to prosletize that rubbish to me. You are on a medical site, not a cult gathering - a site where some of your victims come seeking help from the vile crimes we are all reading about.

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      Wayne I will be praying to our LORD for you this Christmas that you find his love and peace which you seem to need by the tone of annoyance in you. You call it rubbish? When you face our LORD on your final days I pray he has mercy on you. MERRY CHRISTMAS! JOY TO THE WORLD THE LORD HAS COME! ❤

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      I completely agree Wayne. Not everyone is religious or wants to be and quoting this claptrap on a mental health site which is open to everyone regardless of belief or non belief is inappropriate and can make others feel uncomfortable.

      If you others want to preach or bible bash please find a god site - there are many of them out there and leave the rest of us alone. x

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    I'm a Christian as well. I get the same, God's stupid world and the futility of life. Alas that's not all, I have far worse problems than that . basically life in an unsortable mess. Gone on for years

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    I identify with those feelings Mina, I wouldnt feel comfortable replying if I didn't experience the same. I also would be a hypocrite if I were to offer "Solutions" , because I haven't been able to snap out of the funk myself. It seems that Holidays, or other big events act as triggers as well, and invariably we end up missing out on a few potential laughs, smiles and time with loved ones either because we sequester ourselves, or are so filled with angst...we cant open up enough to allow for a pleasant occasion. I get tired of explaining my feelings to doctors, friends and family...I'm tired of hearing myself speak in what must seem like a hyperbole salad to someone who doesn't have a similar malady (when in reality I'm toning down the adjectives that would aptly describe the hurt I sometimes feel, that someone with severe anxiety/depression feels). At days end, one that feels like a trial by fire, were confronted with a choice of how we respond to the firestorm. Fire can either consume us, or temper and strengthen us...its our choice. Were going to have days that are just awful, when this gloom just seems to stalk us. I'm not ashamed to admit the fear I sometimes feel, I've had days that I let it eat me alive. Days that I wouldnt believe thecold and abject anguish unless I'd experienced it myself. Sounds like hyperbole, but you know firsthand im not exaggerating...its just fair, and honest asessment of what takes place. Theres no shame in getting our ass kicked if we squared around and fought back. Just making it through those days intact , without letting it change who we are is a small victory. Stay strong, stay rational, and know this will pass. You are loved by family and friends, and you are never alone no matter how hopeless life can sometimes seem. Better days are coming, so keep your chin up and your smile on this holiday season...I hope its a great one.

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      richard56310, You can talk about faith here...if you cant, were all in bigger trouble than we thought. The same people who speak of faith derisively and in chiding tones, likely have Kunzite crystals in their pocket for teir healing properties as they type. There is nothing cult or occult oriented in the completely transparent Christian faith...and it has the power to heal spiritually and physically. Science, Art, and all human endeavor has been influenced (if not entirely built upon) Judeochristian/Greco-Roman principle and ethos. Pursuit of a creator through investigating nature singlehandedly provided the thrust in creating what is now Western civilization. Faith was the catalyst that brought us out of the dark ages and made us the envy of the world in scientific endeavor, in art and all we found fit to peruse. It was the abandonment of faith in god that turned both entities into self agrandizing exploits "Science without religion is lame. Religion without science is blind"--Albert Einstein. Were here to help each other, were here to give advise according to our own experiences...To make any advances both sides must work together hand in glove. When we seperate the two Science becomes religious, and personal faith becomes religious... both are self oriented, both are weakened. Religious faith becomes posh, fat, and lazy while Scientific faith sucks an infants brain out every 30 seconds ( in this country alone)..you know, as a convenience, a "choice". (Most countries look on in horror at our cold- bloodedness ) Ive seen as much healing take place via faith as I have seen via modern medicine...maybe more. People here are reaching out for help, and we deride advice given in sincere empathy, and love because we view human life as nothing more than a collection of atoms and 23 base-pairs. They have life so distilled and pared down to its essence, that curing complex emotional strife can be cured by chemical tweaks here and there. The human brain is a miracle in and of itself. An organic CRAY super computer many times over in complexity, wireless, and it runs on PB&Js' , Jello and juice-boxes with little pointy straws...But balancing its chemistry is analagous to "filling an empty gas tank". Yep, we got this all figured out. Sure Richard56310, you can speak of faith here, just be careful -you might just help someone.

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