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2nd day back at work and it was stressful. Meeting some the new parents of kids I'll be getting and they are intense. Last year I owuld have been more stable but I was anxious the whole time. No horrible anxiety. Just on the surface anxiety. I was able to communicate well and kept the anxiety at bay.
?Watched the US women's team today - they tied but my anxiety started to creep in. My heart racing and my mind wondering. Worrying about things that haven't happened or things I can't control.
I'm home now drinking my tea - chamomille waiting the primetime Olympics to comes on.
?I have been sharing with close friends about my anxiety. They were so quick to be supportive. What happened to me? Where did things go wrong? What was that mechanism that clicked anxiety in my brain? Questions I wish I had the answers to.
?Sometimes I'm on the edge of tears but I fight them back. I can't let this control me. I have to keep strong.
?I have my talk therapy appointment on Friday. I'll definitely share my thoughts with her. Hopefully she'll have some insight that I can focus on.
?In the mornings, I don't turn on the tv and I focus on staying in the moment and calming myself before the day begins.
?I have been able to get through these days with anxiety lurking behind me. Waiting for it's moment to pounce.
?I don't want this. I didn't invite anxiety in my life but it's here. What lesson do I have to learn from this?
?I do know that so many of you understand my situation and can empathize with me. Giving me words of encouragement and reassurance. For that I'm truly greatful.
?The nights are ok with me and my anxiety. My mind shuts down a bit and do feel a sense of peace. I want that peace to continue. I want it to thrive.
?Sorry for the drawn out post today. I just need to express my thoughts. Thank you for listening.
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