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Hi I'm a teenager and I need your help. I can't tell my parents because I am scared to tell anyone but ever since I was eight I have been expierencing horrible signs of OCD. I feel as if I have to count things or do everything in a specific ritual. I have good numbers and bad numbers and letters and etc. I feel as if I don't perform something a certain amount of times something bad will happen too me. I do this 24 hours a day and it won't stop no matter what. It makes me frustrated and tired but i give in everytime. I've had this go on for so long that I have learned to cope with it, but I don't want to cope with it. Should I still seek help for it? Even if I can cope with it somewhat? Also lately I have felt empty and like I cannot be happy. I feel like I'm stuck, with no meaning. I don't know if I am pushing this depression upon my self but I feel like no matter what I can't be happy. I keep a journal of all off my thoughts and share it with no one. I find it hard too concentrate in school because I have so many thoughts running through my head at once. I often zone out now and when I do zone out I think about all of those thoughts and it makes my heart race greatly. I constantly sweat, I used to be the life of a party but now I push people away, I keep to myself and I just want to be alone all day and try not to talk to anyone. My friends hate me now because they noticed I changed. I often ask my self questions everyday and it frustrates me because I can't answer them. I don't feel like myself. I don't have suicidal thoughts but I don't see a meaning in life anymore and Death doesn't scare me anymore. Sometimes I take pills at night just to make me feel good and sometimes I take 2 times the amount. I've never thought about hurting myself but one night I was doing homework and I took my pencil to my wrist and couldn't stop. I never feel relaxed and in class I always find myself clicking a pen or chewing on things as a nervous habit....so I guess my question is, is this serious? Am I doing this to myself? Should I seek help? Please help me. Thank you.
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Bootsie28
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You say you can't talk to your parents. As a parent myself, I would want to help my child if they were struggling. Are you sure you can't speak to them? Is ther another family member or teacher you could perhaps talk to? Someone you trust? If not, don't worry, as you should be able to see the doctor on your own anyway. Try not to suffer in silence, you'll be surprised at how many people do care about you. Remember, you are suffering from an illness and that will skew your thoughts and feelings.
I really hope you are able to get help and things improve. While life may seem awful now, trust me, it is worth living and will get better.
Take care and let us know how you get on xx
Bowling120
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Bootsie28
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If you do eventually decide to speak to your mum, you could ask the doctor for some information to give her to help her understand? I once forwarded an online article to try to help my husband understand depression. He was always trying to fix me, giving me advice that I should go out/exercise, which is good advice, but sometimes you just aren't up to that and can't face the thought.
Please try and speak to your teacher tomorrow and you can let me know how you get on. I'm suffering from insomnia at the moment, which is symptom of depression/anxiety and side effect of medication (though they will pass).
Xxx
Bowling120
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Adonai
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Here is why:
OCD is controllable with Cognitive Behavior Therapy (CBT), an evidence-based therapeutic method.
During therapy, you may also come to the meaning behind your need to control.
Moreover, you will eliminate future anxiety/depression and live the satisfied horizontal life you are seeking.All of this is because you are brave to follow through and seek support. We are all social creatures, we need each other to survive.
What are your thoughts on this?
Adonai
Bowling120
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Adonai
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Today talk with your family and make an appointment with a CBT therapist.
"Have the courage to be imperfect"
Adonai
Bowling120
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Adonai
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Let me know how it all comes together for you. I'll be thinking of you...go get it!
Adonai
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