one step away from suicide

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Hello

I found this site a few days ago, and it seems to me that most of people who post here are fellow people who suffer with depression. I am very close to taking my final breath. My life is just agony! No joy whatsoever. People dont understand me. I constantly get ignored. It's a vicious circle im stuck in. I cant believe im writing this, how sad is my life? The best and esiest thing i can think of is just to pull the plug. Nobody will miss me, honestly. It might sound daft but the thought of giving up is very tempting indeed.

I apologies for my negatively and I wish the best for everyone

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    Hi Lostguy,

    Come on, there must be something good to look forward to - even if it is small. To me, if you have posted here then subconsciously you maybe dont want to end it all.

    There are other ways of coping. This is a very final step. Have you spoken to a counsellor/doctor about your feelings of desolation? If not then I suggest you should.

    I will be here to talk whenever you need. Feel free to post or pm (your choice) as I have been there, decided not to do it and my life now is so much better. There are so many things I would have missed out on.

    All the best,

    Lelly xx

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    hiya lostguy :cheerup:

    just last december/january i too was ready to 'turn the lights out' permanantly :cry: but i pressed the 'panic button' and sought professional help, i'm now on the way to a full recovery :ok: , are you receving specialist help lostguy ?? :huh: if not you need to imediately :shock: the longer you leave it the longer it will take to recover :? perhaps you need a spell in hospital :huh:

    don't forget you can walk into ANY hospital accident and emergency or walk in center at any time if things get too much, you will be seen by a specialist straight away :ok: :mrgreen:

    good luck and keep posting, you're amongst friends here lostguy :wink: :peace:

    cheers,

    Ken ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ :ok: :rainbow: :run:

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    Thanks for the replies

    Im scared of getting help or going to the hospital! I know why i feel like this, but evrything i do to get out of it, either has no effect or makes it worse. I want to understand it, but its somehow getting more complicated.

    yes i dont want to end it all but its the way how i feel lelly

    thanks again

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    Hey there, I can totally understand what you feel. I have had 5 suicide attempts since January. at the time life seemed so worthless as did I and felt better if i wasnt here. I didnt care what other people said to me and felt so isolated and alone.

    Please keep taking the medication and hopefully those fellings will soon leave you, it is an uphill struggle but there is light at the end of the tunnel. I have been there and totally understand.

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    [quote:2bfe29dda9=\"thelostguy \"]Thanks for the replies

    Im scared of getting help or going to the hospital! I know why i feel like this, but evrything i do to get out of it, either has no effect or makes it worse. I want to understand it, but its somehow getting more complicated.

    yes i dont want to end it all but its the way how i feel lelly

    thanks again[/quote:2bfe29dda9]

    Hi there

    You say that you're scared to get help or go to the hospital but you're thinking of ending your own life?

    I think killing yourself is far more scary and final than facing up to the fact you just need a bit of help to deal with your problems.

    Make an appointment with your doctor, TODAY.

    HG

    x

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    I agree entirely. Don't mean to shout but GET YOUR BACKSIDE TO THE DOCTORS NOW!!!!!!!

    I know it is difficult to confront how you feel and admit you need help but trust me, the relief when you have done it is amazing.

    With love

    Lelly xx

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    I fully understand. I dont know how i got here but i dont know how to get out again. I was on amitriptyline for about 10 days on a realy low dose to help with neuro pain (permanent nerve damage) following an accident. My life has become relentless and there is no light at the end of the tunnel so after much nagging from the wife i went to GP. He put me on 150mg of venlafaxine and after only 1 tablet i was worried (allsorts of side effects - shakes, vomit, diahorrea, tension, excessive alertness, visual intrusions it goes on). I returned next day and he reduced to 75mg i tried for 4 days and still bad (although side effects were lessening. I returned 2 days ago and he took me off them and prescribed Flu. I have had 2 tablets and the symptoms i had have gone.

    I was thinking these are much better. Then this morning i sat here crying for 2 hours all alone and i dont even know why. I havent slept in 7 days too wired. went to bed at 11 tonight in hope of sleep and lay there fretting about the fact i couldnt sleep. then worried that i had feelings of thoughts running through my head preventing sleep (but my head was empty) no thoughts at all.

    Ok you all think im nuts now and rambling about total twoddle. Th elonger i lay there the worse i felt and i feel the only way out the only light at the end of the tunnel is to end it.

    I also know i wont end it - i cant but the desire to do so is overwhelming. Im so confused and dont want to take ANY tablets anymore. I feel worse, far worse since taking tablets than i did before.

    I cant talk to GP i dont want to be locked away. I cant deal with the social stigma i would put upon myself

    im going now and hope you all get better

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