One step forward and now ten steps back, please help?
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I was raped 3 years ago, although he was arrested no charges were made due to it being my word against his. I have battled daily trying to get my confidence and life back together, only a handful of people know what happened to me and I have made a new circle of friends that knew nothing about it as I didn't want people judging me or talking behind my back. This was until last night when I was out and someone I thought was beginning to become a good friend said he had been told not to be on his own with me because I'll cry rape. I lost it, I'm so placid but commpletely lost my temper and made a complete fool of myself in public. How can I ever face the outside world again? Will this ever leave me, I questioned if I would be better off dead last night but I will not do that, however I am a shadow of my former self and back to the person I was 3 years ago when it all happened. I have been waiting 3 years for counselling through my doctors surgery as I cannot afford to pay for it myself, I have battled this alone and just as I was beginning to smile I hate myself again today.
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d53770 Time2Talk
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I'm not going to use any platitudes. I can't relate to your past but I can relate to your present. You have come to the right place; there are some good people here. I'm glad you reached out to this community.
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Desperate_now Time2Talk
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I don't really know what you are going through but you do need to come to terms with what happened 3 years ago, and counselling will help.
As d53770 said you have made a good choice in coming to the site you will get good sound advice.
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talking therapies have such a good recovery rate and in England have saved millions of pounds since it was launched I think in about 2010 to NHS England.
i was never a therapist but I was a nurse who has undergone CBT in the past and if I can help or you have a question but do not want to go on a public site you can always private message me and I will respond.
I do have a private conversation with someone I have got talking to through this site and it has been a God send to me, so there is he for you should you need it. It is good to talk.
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donna_03931 Time2Talk
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You can and will get over this. There is hope for all of us.
There are rape and abuse counselling services in most areas which are free and you can self refer. Just google the above and you will get specialist help, free of charge, and much quicker that IAPT or community mental health teams.
I hope you find this useful
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