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Since my early 20's I've had bouts of panic about my health - or I should say about dying. Im not scared of going to the doctors if I do feel ill - but I always fear the worst beforehand. I cant help using google searches to work out whats wrong with me - which always invaribly tell me I'm going to die of cancer, which becomes the focus of my worry despite what the doctor tells me - I'm always worried my GP has missed something....
Since I became a father three years ago my bouts of panic have become worse.
To describe the panic, I get hot and feel physically sick, my palms get sweaty and I want to run away and hide or scream and escape my body somehow. When I try to sleep it takes me hours to go off, I have night sweats - I wake up drenched in sweat.
I can go to work and fill my whole day without worry - but in the car on the way home just listening to the radio, news of a celebrity death of cancer etc can set me off.
Sometimes in my daily routine something will trigger thoughts that I will die someday - and the panic sets in.
I'm not on any kind of medication and havent spoken to my GP about this.
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