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Iv been having panic attack for 5 yrs 2 years ago i wouldnt go out the door.. I started on matazpine but they made me worse i stops taking the tab.. When my second son was born i got out the house (yay) but no i feel im going bk to my old ways.. As anyone else been in this situation x
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DeliriousDave danielle24639
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I've literally just been searching 'Agoraphobia' on here to see if there was a group to join.. then I read your post = coincidence. I've suffered with anxiety and depression for years on & off, although more 'on' than 'off' recently. I'm to a point now where I only leave the house if absolutely necessary (I'm not working, quit my job last September. Haven't even signed on) but in the back of my mind I know the more I don't go out the harder it becomes. My issue is how people instantly judge you just by the way you look. They say 'never judge a book by its cover' but the majority of people do unfortunately. As a result I tend to withdraw more; before buying bread & milk last Friday I hadn't seen or spoken to anyone else since the 2nd April. It's a very strange & lonely existence; on one hand I really miss the interaction & banter... but on the other hand I find it hard. I have a very small circle of reasonably close friends but the last time I saw one of them was December!! Lol.. you must be thinking 'OMG that's pretty extreme'. I guess it is :-D I can laugh about it but really I should do something about it too.
Is this similar to your experiences? Let me know!
Dave.
danielle24639 DeliriousDave
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Danielle
DeliriousDave danielle24639
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When you say "it's a push to do things" is that because you've just lost interest?
Dave.
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If you don't view it that way you certainly should!
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If you're doing things little by little you're moving in the right direction. I guess I'm at the point now where you were before; since I quit my job last September I've kinda hibernated... To put into perspective how few people/how little interaction I have with anyone else I recently had an hours telephone conversation with my cousin & the next day I'd lost my voice completely... you don't use your voice when you don't see anyone so I hadn't spoken for weeks! It's a pretty random existence. I don't feel like I'm interacting with life in anyway nowadays, just surviving day to day & going through the motions.
I would give Fluoxetine a try if I were you; it may be the final jigsaw piece in the puzzle, you could take it then be back to normality by the summer, you won't know if you don't try!
Dave.
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DeliriousDave louise37661
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I personally have taken 30mg Mirtazapine daily for 14 years with a year's hiatus in 2010. I guess that'll probably surprise you; it does most people. My own anxiety/depression comes & goes, seemingly (and very frustratingly) at will. I'll suffer a bad bout of anxiety, always for a prolonged period, months or years even, where I experience pretty intense anxiety/depression or both, hit rock bottom & eventually claw my way back from the depths. I usually perk up towards the summer months, although that didn't really happen last year which is concerning.
Obviously we're all different so don't be put off hearing of my somewhat prolonged Mirtazapine prescription; it may aid you in such a positive way that you're literally only taking it a month or two. A cautionary proviso is to have patience with the Mirtazapine as it takes a couple of weeks to settle into your system & begin working.
Do you mind if I ask how your anxiety & depression manifests itself? I have a mixed bag really; OCD, health anxiety, rituals etc. These are facts I've established myself through research & recognising signs/symptoms, I've never been diagnosed by a health professional.
I personally believe we, as fellow anxiety/depression sufferers, experience all emotions at a much higher & more intense level to 'regular' people. Conversely when I feel 'good' I feel *really* good too; the enhanced interpretation isn't just reserved for 'negatives', thank heavens.
I know chatting here with other like minded folks offers reassurance that I take solace in. I hope you find it as rewarding too Louise.
Dave.
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DeliriousDave louise37661
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I would say the Mirtazapine helps, there's three main areas it's designed to treat; anxiety, depression & to aid sleep (although the third is more of a fortunate side effect, I say fortunate because insomnia is often a complaint associated with anxiety & depression anyway). I'm not sure if it works as well for me anymore, as I mentioned previously I've taken it for years so maybe that's why. I'd definitely suggest you give it a whirl; from what you said you sound fed up with suffering, feeling suicidal is horrible... don't ever think you're alone in your suffering though Louise because you're not, I think we all feel each others pain & torment as well as compassion & empathy for each other here on these forums. So yes, I would recommend you try Mirtazapine, if you sometimes feel so bad you're suicidal things can only improve, you certainly have nothing to lose & everything to gain. Just remember the tablets take a couple of weeks to begin working and you will feel pretty groggy when you wake the following morning for a little while (I guess you already know they're taken 2 or 3 hours before bedtime). Are you having any CBT or therapy of any type? I can't emphasise how important it is to talk your problems through with someone who you trust, that's the thing I miss most, having someone to get into a deep conversation with!
So to recap; yes, try the Mirtazapine, even if it takes a little while to work concerning your anxiety & depression it'll calm you sufficiently from the first time you take it so your thoughts shouldn't race so much & you should sleep better as a result.
Dave.
louise37661 DeliriousDave
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I feel like I can only be totally honest with how I feel on things like this as I don't want my family to worry .
They do know I'm ment to be changing medication though so they do have some idea .
I hope that you are feeling ok 🌼
DeliriousDave louise37661
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Glad to hear you're going to 'go for it' concerning changing medication, this could be the beginning of you returning back to your old self! I hope seeing a councillor will be more beneficial this time too, I know what you mean though; I saw a therapist before & it was helpful... but only whilst I was seeing them, within a month or so of the CBT ending I felt the buoyancy slowly fading once more. I've always been one of those people who thought 'there must be more to life than this', I even thought that way during extremely successful employment periods where everything was seemingly going fine. I guess my constant search for something more satisfying & fulfilling can be detrimental to my wellbeing... I just really want to make a difference in a positive way while I'm here.
I always used to keep exactly how bad I was feeling from my Father, I guess that's why it's a relief to come & be (almost) totally honest with how I feel on here. I say 'almost' because I'm a very private person, if I was ever planning anything crazy or stupid I certainly wouldn't tell anyone anyway.
Wow... after reading that back I realise it's not very 'upbeat', apologies!
I hope you're feeling ok,
Dave.
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