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I feel like I am going through hell. I am not exaggerating. I am feeling lost and that I have lost myself.
I recently found out that I had mostly likely started in period menopause in my late 20's early 30's and although I had been tested at the time due to horrendously heavy periods the results got missed and then last year due to the same symptoms and seemingly having heavy periods every 2 weeks and feeling exhausted with it all I requested another test and was informed that yes I was definately peri menopausal but then I had been for many many years... I had been missed by GP at the time. I will be 42 this week. I was firstly put on fem seven patches as concerns held that as I had gone into very very early peri menopause with low oestrogen all those years back what the impact could be on my bones. The first patches were ok but the second patches plunged me into hell. I am now (this last week) on a combined hrt treatment of levorel 75 patches ongoing which I have to change twice a week combined with progesterone tablets which I have to take twice a day for 12 days out of every month alongside.
Now on to me: my memory is gone, I'm accident prone, I hurt from head to toe, the pain in my joints particularly neck, shoulders, elbows and hips etc is constant and has been for years. Holding a hairdryer above my head for more than a minute hurts. I cry at everything. I mean at everything. Adverts, music, anything can set me off. My poor fella is constantly passing me tissues. I feel maternal towards everything. I'm even talking to the spiders in the house. I feel like mother earth but that means I'm feeling every living creatures pain which means I'm always in tears. I have the dreaded sweats and insomnia. My confidence is rock bottom and I feel so old and fat. I don't recognise myself I feel like I'm not existing and I can't remember who I am or who I used to be. I feel like I've lost my identity. I do work full time and i work long hours and manage this (just) but out of work I'm an empty shell. I know it's hormone related and it's the dreaded symptoms of this phase of life. I have no energy either. Do any of you ladies feel like this? And have you found any solutions to make you feel better? Thankyou for reading ?
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