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I give birth nearly 6 weeks ago I love my baby so much but I still feel it's all overwhelming it's my third child and the whole pregnancy was a shock I didn't find out until I was 3 months pregnant and it was happy days but I went through alot of stress which kind of never let me bond with my bump well he's here now and I love him so much but since a week postpartum I started to have fears because previous pregnancy I hemmoraged after it I was convinced it would happen again anyways it didn't but things did kinda happen that was similar including heavily bleeding so of course I freaked don't my anxiety was very high but anyways to the point I have been dizzy now like on a boat for 31 days ! No end in sight to it now when I stand I feel weak and get a scared feeling in my chest and legs and heart races even when I'm sat down I'm spinning I've been feeling so down I feel like I'm failing my family due to unavle to walk because the dizziness I want to be in bed all day I have no motivation I've let my house my gorgeous clean house turn into a bomb site ! I have to push myself to shower I feel numb I cry alot and have had thoughts that I'd be better off not here does it sound like depression causing all this ? On top of this I'm having a brain tumour scare so my doctor can't assume it's anxiety/depression until I've had my scan that's his own words I feel like my whole life is not real anymore I don't want to see anybody I don't even go out unless I'm forced to ( doctors ect ) I don't even want to see family anymore I feel so awful why don't I feel normal I don't self harm but I have dug my nails into my skin and left marks when been angry at myself and it helps me I don't understand what's happening I'm scaring myself
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