Possible second outbreak heartbroken again
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Okay I got diagnosed with herpes (still to this day don't know what type) in February my outbreak wasn't that as it stung to wee but it wasn't bad at all none of my sores hurt as much just when I weed it felt a bit sore and took almost a month to clear
I got over it and accepted it and even had days where I would think about it then today I was having a wee and looked down and saw what looked like a sore but small it doesn't sting at all I feel a bit itchy but apart from looking I wouldn't of known it was there! I looked with a mirror and see no other sores what so ever!
Is this a second outbreak? I feel so sad again I feel like a dirty tramp all over again I don't want to go through the emotional pain of it all again I really don't I was close to suicide last time I don't want that again
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amanda47126 Livelife
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I remember that feeling. I was diagnosed a year ago and I get constant OB. I thought who would want me. That I was a leper !
Do you know what tho.. its a skin condition, thats all. Some people have eczema..acne etc we get sores the same.
Your first outbreak is the worst. I look at mine now as an inconvenience. You may never get another OB after this one, if it is one.
I know how hard it is at first but believe me when you look at statistics by tge time people reach 50 almost 70 % have herpes in one shape or form. Look at it as a skin condition spread through touch.
Keep your chin up xx
Livelife amanda47126
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Thank you normally I am fine and I can forget about it and I still can't tell if this was a second outbreak I had maybe one sore (looked absolutely nothing like the others) didn't hurt itch burn or anything and it's gone now so weird
jj22795 Livelife
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So I was diagnosed a month ago and I'll say it's weird...I felt like you that first week, more of the stress came from me being worried about my partner...but since I ended that relationship...honestly, i could only tell you how it's been since I've look at it like this.....I have herpes because of what I did, cool....manana it now....protect yourself from getting anything more, protect others from you transmitting and understand that as long as you really follow guidelines of treatment/suppressive therapy....you're good...when you want to take a relationship to that next level with someone, have the talk (I haven't been there yet, but I could imagine this making things difficult again) SIDENOTE: maybe just me, I feel like herpes is between me and who I'm having sex with ( more so unprotected sex, transmission period sex)
Livelife jj22795
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I could never tell anybody I have it, obviously that means I'll never be able to be with anyone again but I know I couldn't do it
The thing is even with condoms and suppressive treatment it's not 100%
I couldn't live with myself if I passed it on to somebody
I just don't feel good I feel like it's not something I'm going to be able to cope with I want my old life back
jj22795 Livelife
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Trust me, I know you're dying inside....I secluded myself the first week...does nothing...I went as far as to starving myself, irritating my body by (shaving, not showering) JUST TO ENCOURAGE AN OUTBREAK because I couldn't cope with the idea of having herpes....it's difficult, I'm still getting over it, I couldn't give it to anyone, and would hate to talk to anyone about it....but you have to go one way or another....poke your chest out, chin up and figure the best way to go about living with it OR settle and THINK you should only date people with herpes
dora29322 Livelife
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