Postnatal depression anybody else suffering?

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Hi my baby is now 3 weeks old and from the third day I was home my anxiety and panic attacks started terribly! I have now been on Paroxetine 20mg for nearly three weeks now which seems to be easing my anxiety symptoms however I am suffering postnatal depression and finding it quite hard to bond with my baby which is awful and I have found myself sitting there wishing I'd never gotten pregnant! I worry about being on my own with him! Will these feelings subside? I would be grateful to anybody who is suffering or has suffered the same! Is there light at the end on the tunnel? Because at the moment I am a different person and don't like doing all the old things I used to like socialising etc! I just want to be back to my old self and enjoy being a mum! I would be grateful to hear from anybody who knows what i am going through! Thank you x

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    I suffered from terrible depression after the birth of my first child which got better after around 6 months by itself. A lot of it was down to not getting any sleep or a break from the baby. However, after the birth of my second child the depression took a terrible turn for the worst. One day I shut my new baby and my toddler in their rooms and then sat crouched in the corner of the kitchen. I didn't even want to touch them. I knew then that I had very serious depression and went to the doctors. He prescibed me with lofepramine which was just amazing. After about two weeks I felt like I had my personality back and was enjoying looking after my children again. It was just amazing. After 6 months I came off them without a single withdrawal and was fine for a few years before major depression hit me again. So I know just how you are feeling. It may be that you need to try a different anti depressive drug.
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      I do feel that the ADs are working it's just the bonding and being a bit scared of my baby I haven't had the rush of love that every mum says they get! Will this come with time once I start feeling better? I just want to be able to enjoy being a mum!
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      Yes, it will come. I was not naturally maternal. I didn't feel that rush of love. I needed time to get to know my baby. It was much easier second time around in terms of more immediate bonding. In nature, many animals can make poor mums first time around. I think it is the same for humans. You feel your life has almost been taken away from you at first. It's okay to feel like that. You will grow to love your baby. I bet that you would lay your life on the line though to protect your baby, even at this early stage. But don't feel bad because you don't feel that deep love. It will come.
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      Thank you for getting back to me it just scares me that I'm never gonna love my baby and with me having thoughts like wishing I never got pregnant is horrible because I've always wanted a baby and now he here it's so much more different then what I imagined just wish I could be like all the other mums you see who are happy xx
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      . I must admit with  first child  I had that rush of love with him and couldn't have been happier, with my second child when they gave him to me I just looked at him and said he is ok looks a little like my first then immediately gave him to my husband. It wasn't until several weeks later when I took him into work that a health visitor said I must see someone quickly. I had post natal depression. I had no idea I was looking after my 2 boys but there was no love I was literally going through the motions. I was put on Paroxetine and had a lot of support from health professionals. I did get better and so will you, it is hard and does take time.

      as for that rush of love for your baby, you can still really love your baby without experiencing it. I did and you may experience it as I did when you least expect it when you baby or child achieves something that makes you so proud it was worth the wait. My rush of love for my son was on his 21st when he graduated in the RAF

      i wish you well but try and remain positive you will come through this and you will love your baby very much.

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