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I feel really messed up, up until the begin of this week I was coping ( to a fashion ) fight my anxiety. But somethings snapped and I just end in tears. I had been to my GP who increased my mirtazapine from 30mg to 45mg but after 7 days I began to feel suicidal.
I am self employed and as a result end up losing work this week as I am not fit. :0(. I start on Venaflaxine today twice a day and just pray I can stabilise my life and move on from this blip. It's been 12 months since I ever fel this way I whilst I knew I wasn't fixed I thought the management was getting there.
Seems depression is the hardest thing to fix :0(
The guilt I feel and pressure from family ( who are only trying to help ) to take it easier but not to lose work etc etc is really tough. It makes me question whether self employment was the best way forward, and I have worked so hard for the last 2 month too.
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amberstar33 UK-Ven-medicate
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Try not to have all or nothing thinking. Sounds like it has been a tough week this week for you and we all have tough times now and then. Try to focus on the positives and the steps you can make moving forward (I'm telling myself these things too).
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In the meantime do you have time to look through some self help CBT? There are some good resources online that could help with temporary relief until then.
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anne240 UK-Ven-medicate
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I do hope your business meeting goes well. Lets hope we both manage with little anxiety. I think we have to believe in our own abilities and have confidence in ourselves.
froggy2 UK-Ven-medicate
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"Froggy Why dont you...."
"Froggy You really *should* be doing......."
"Froggy I don't understand why youre getting upset at us....."
I agree with anne240 'ey go easy on yourself.'
If it helps, I seem to get a whole bunch of stuff happening at the same time for example this week -- At the moment, my assistant, is trying to be the boss, was trying to find a place to rent - not easy in Syd and - just found one, location means possible Job change, or job change means location change. Got colonscopy *and* gastrospy operation tomorrow, got rental keys and money handover, and heavy goods move in on weekend. Also got career Councelling session Thurs.
I spent a fair bit of the weekend talking to myself.. which is better than using a knife on me or someone else.
SO Monday 24th = At least I've got a place to stay. I can centre round this.
By Friday, I will have some general directions about health and career.
It helped to write it down and then tick off stuff.
Balance - wise, I think heaps are hit by this. there is so much information "You should do this" "Why aren't you a multi millionaire now?"
and nothing about "I enjoy helping people" "My job is satisfying"
anne240 froggy2
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You are doing it too, being hard on yourself. Who are all these people having a "go"? One thing at a time. Break it down. Please be kind to yourself. You sound as though you have it sussed out as you write it down and tick off. You have a place to rent, that's good.
Glad you are in counselling. Is it helping you? You are doing really good for someone who has anxiety issues. Well done. Give yourself a pat on the back.
froggy2 anne240
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I talked about the flat, and other stuff, and I don't recall "Hey GREAT news" "Well done" or any enabling stuff like "can we organise a moving truck"
What I got was "why are you are on the other side of town away from your friends?" "You should have got $600 a week place I mentied earlier" "But why rent ?" "Why a Studio apartment" "You should have continued to look" (this from the person that asked me to leave by Christmas)
I always end up having to verbally explain myself and I not good at talking!
aaaRRRGHH!
At work as manager, its the same thing I wlways have to fight something.. (My Level 2 assistant to me a Level 5)
Why did you decide this? I think its wrong.
You haven't done this yet, It needs to be completed by this afternoon.
froggy2
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One positive is I'm asking for emails from the level2 so I have time to consider and then going why did you say that?
Using 1. 2. number points is good for reference but it helps me reduce long emails.
If anyone is in the same boat with difficulties addressing issues, especially at work, see if this works for them.
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Good morning Level2
1. I am processing book1 as a Destruction as per XYZ advice.
2. I note that book1 which you also mentioned in your email was not mentioned by Mr Smith. Please follow this up and advise if this also needs me to look at it.
3. So that I can document the destruction, what is the Task Number that your correspondence with Mr Smith has been placed in? If you have not created a Task for this, please do so and advise number via email.
4. Regarding verbal discussion last week as you mentioned below, please could you detail the discussion you mentioned in an email, so that I can understand where you are directing me.
Thank you for this.
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