Scared !

My boyfriend gave it to me, he didn’t know he had it. I was hysterical & depressed when I found out I had it because he denied having it when I told him I had it (Bc he didn’t know) we even broke up for a few days because of him getting mad & blaming him. But I stayed with him. Iv also told other people (ex’s) about me having it & all of them have been ok with it & have told me they would still date me. So far Iv been very lucky with the few people Iv told. & to be honest if you tell someone just give them some time to process it, don’t freak out if they need that time 

It is a touchy subject, everyone reacts differently. My now fiancè accepted it when I told him but I shared that info with him before being sexually active. I allowed him to decide if that was something he was okay with.

HI, 

So im new here, I believe I gave it to my bf, im older than him by 5 years & ive been in more relationships. At this point im trying to figuire out 100% if Im a carrier, or new, or if he got it. But im mostly sure I did. Anyway he freaked out & told him his symptoms & he began crying & i had no choice but to confess & i started panicking. we hit rock bottom hence we been together for 2 years. & I committed a selfish stupid decision of cheating on him, when we are in love & know we are soul mates. He got symptoms however I only got sore throat for a couple days on & off. Up to today im fine. But im saddened he experienced a bad first OB. Ive done on him oral & not touch the blisters thinking, "well fu*k it I have it too & we gonna stay together so no big deal now" Dont get me wrong, It was a rocky full month after my mistake we are now taking a break apart bcuz although he's madly in love with me , he's also in pain when he sees me. But we both have a common goal to move forward, seek psychological help, & be happy. Im working so hard to gain his trust but that will take time. All i can do is be sweet to him , I took him for granted. I will never make this mistake again.