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Hi, around the 28 of December last year I started experiencing what I'm sure you're already familiar with. ALL the major symptoms of Anxiety disorder. The chest pains, left arm going numb, pins&needles, jolting awake in a panic, throat closing up etc. Checked myself into the ER and was told my muscles are strained.
I wasn't satisfied so I went to another doctor and demanded an EKG. He confirmed my heart is fine but I have Anxiety disorder. Since then I've been researching the illness.
Fast forward to now, since then I've developed really bad health anxiety! I am now experiencing tons of other weird symtoms. I feel pain in a different area everyday, I'm constantly worried I have at least half a dozen different types of cancer. I'm terrified and I haven't gone for all the tests I wanna have done.
I'm gonna be in the states for another 4 months or so. I'm not American so I don't have Insurance. I understand going to doctors here will cost a load of money that I don't have.
Lemme add that I'm 28, I've always been healthy and active. Grew up on a farm in Jamaica where I ate only natural foods. First time I had pizza, burgers or any junk food I was 16. I usually run 5ks and I love sports.
But now I just sit around and fret 24/7 that I'm dying and I can't afford healthcare. (I'm not working currently and that makes me feel worthless becuz I'm used to working)
I've been depressed since I was like 13, I'm kind of a pessimist. I'm gay and closeted, in Jamaica coming out means I could get harmed....physically. now that I'm in the states I wanna come out but I'm scared because I'm totally dependent on a few people. I don't want them to shun me at a time when I need them. ( For example: It's cold and I can't afford to be kicked out)
All my relationships have been shortlived (7 months was the longest) and I'm worried my current gf who's an RN will take off too. We met 2 months ago, I spent 2.8 weeks with her and I'm worried my hypochondria has freaked her out.
All these head, arm, joint&back pains all started after my Anxiety diagnosis on December 29th.
Can Anxiety really cause me to feel physical pain in a different area everyday? I don't feel pain in the same place for more than 2days. Surely I don't have cancer in every single body part. I'm scared and I wanna go back to being the vibrant 28th old who kicked a soccer ball,worked out and ran at least 4th mes per week! Help!
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