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My name is Elliot and I'm 22 years old.
I'll start my story from the beginning, I apologise in advance for the length of my post.
For most of my life I've been relatively happy, I was raised by two loving parents and never had any problems at home. I was also pretty happy throughout my school years and thankfully never really had any issues with bullying. I made some good friends at school who are still some of my closest friends to this day. I've always been a quiet and shy sort of person but this never really caused me any problem, I realise now that my problems started during my final years of high school. A lot of my closest friends had left school before A levels and my remaining friends were in different classes so started to isolate myself a lot more, often going home in free periods and eating lunch by myself. I did fairly well with my GCSE's and A levels but I was absolutely clueless about what to do with my life. The school and lots of my friends were advising me to go to university, but in the back of my mind I was questioning whether it was really what I wanted to do.
So I went to university to study electronic engineering. This was the start of the darkest periods of my life. I never hit it off with my flatmates and went to extreme measure to avoid them. I realise now that I suffered from social anxiety very badly which lead me to become heavily depressed. During my second year I sought help through the counselling service, I will admit this helped as much as it could and did lead me to meet one of the few friends I made at university. However I think the best advice someone could have given me would have to been leave that place and try something else. In short I wasn't eating properly, sleeping problem and I felt absolutely terrible. This ultimately lead me to only achieve a third class degree which is very poor and in the right frame of mind things could have been different.
In the most recent part of my life a lot of progress has been made. I am currently on the antidepressant citalopram 20mg and having given it a while it seems to be helping somewhat. I am also currently volunteering at a local heritage railway and training to eventually become a guard which has been a big step for me. Whenever my dad has two man jobs I help him out and I'm always much happier when I'm working. Really the reason I have come to this forum is to ask for advice on the best way to move my life forward. I am currently unemployed and have been looking for work for some time. At this point I would be willing to apply for dead end type jobs. My father thinks that I should get some training in a hands on trade like an electrician, but it's not that easy having got no car and very little confidence. It's also hard to find training given that I am 22 and already been to university. Ultimately being something like an electrician is something I'd like to do but I personally feel I should just get some employment somewhere, anywhere even places like Tesco just to develop my confidence and get enough money to get a car would be beneficial and then from there look at getting some extra training but my dad disagrees. So really I want some advice on what you think would be best thing for me to do right now, try to put yourself in my shoes if you can.
Thank you very much for reading and any advice you can give me,
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