Should have been more selfish with myself,,,my love...
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I've been so depressed since i found out that I could have genital herpes... I'm a 25yr old single mother of two boys... I'm so depressed cause my chances of one-day finding the love of my life and future father figure for my boys are now slim to none now. It's not fair because I'm such a nice person. I had a jacked up childhood, didn't really have a childhood and now,I may not get to enjoy my twenties... What man is gonna wanna settle down with someone like me??? Its just not fair!!! Things is always happening to me!!! I love my babies,,, I just don't know how long I can live like this...
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I know exactly how you're feeling. I'm a single mum of two boys also. Their dad walked out on us when my youngest was 4 months old and my eldest was 2. Both my boys have ASD which is really challenging for me. I've got a whole load of other things to deal with too which leaves me pretty much exhausted and run down most of the time. Suffer with depression, anxiety, low self esteem etc etc. I can completely empathise with you as I worry about the same stuff too. Don't get me wrong, I can and do cope with everything myself, I'm strong and am doing a good job raising my boys, but it will never be good enough, I know that. There's things kids need male role models for and it keeps me awake at night worrying that I am not providing this for them. I'm 33 so time is not on my side! All guys my age are married already. So there's one positive thing you can hold on to, at 25 you are still young and have much more time to meet a guy who will love you and your boys. I'm sure this will happen for you. I guess the trick is to stop worrying about it and let whatever is gonna happen, happen. Much, much easier said than done though I know! For now just keep your head up, be proud of yourself and your boys. They will have the utmost respect for their mother as they grow older as I know mine will too.
As for the herpes thing, you said you might have it?? So you don't know yet? I'm no expert but in my general knowledge I know that herpes is a very common virus that lots of people carry without even knowing. If you do have it, its really not the end of the world but obviously is unpleasant. If you read up about it you may be able to reassure yourself that it's not too bad. Well, as far as STI's go. Just wait and see what happens there before you get yourself too worked up. Also, when you go to get your results make sure you speak in depth to the doctor / nurse about it which I'm sure you will do anyway.
Take care Nikki.